Calm Down Tiger

104: Babe, Baby, Love, or Mark?

A/N: I will try to write Author's note here from now on.

I've hurt myself today by reading a sad angst story and I can't get it out of my mind. Why? I don't know!

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Hyuk's POV

I was supposed to be working today but I cannot finish even a single paragraph on my proposal so I told my manager that I am not feeling well and I will take a half day.

People in my department are so shocked because I don't normally use my half days—even if I am close to dying already. But today is different; I cannot put myself together anymore.

Ai'Cap called me a while ago and told me to meet him up in a café near Myeongdong and I am half eager and half worried to meet him because I want to know how Ai'Gun is.

What I didn't expect is seeing the four of them—Ai'Cap, Ai'White, Ai'Gun, and Nong Mark sitting on one table and waiting for me. I almost choke when Ai'Gun raised his hand and smiles brightly at me when he saw me coming in the café.

"Sawadee khrab P'," they all said in union and I can't even utter the word to them. I wai and sit opposite to all of them. This is like an interrogation table, "What do you want to eat P'?" Ai'Cap asked me right away and though I am still confused I still gave him my order, "Ahm—waffle and Thai milk tea," and he smiles.

He pushes Ai'White, "Go White, buy our orders first~" then when Ai'White is gone, I cannot still comprehend what's happening. "Why did you leave the office early today na khrab P'?" I am so nervous even though Ai'Gun asked me nicely. I cannot even remember this feeling because I am always their cool P'Hyuk all the time. I smile nervously, "Just can't focus na Ai'Gun—" then I scan him.

He looks great to me. He is smiling like the usual, he is looking at me like the way he looks at me before, he is talking to me normally, "Ahm—Ai'Gun—are you okay na khrab?" I asked slowly. I don't want to hurt him again—just like last night.

My brother smiles bigger, "Woie—I am okay na P'," then I noticed how he nudges Nong Mark for couple of times now. I raised my eyebrow, "What is it?" but I remember how much I hate filtering my thoughts. I asked right away, "Ahm—P'Hyuk—P'Mark will say something to you na khab~" Ai'Gun said and this time he let the spotlight on his boyfriend. Even Ai'Cap is just calmly sitting beside Ai'Gun.

A deep sigh, "I'm sorry P'Hyuk—" did I hear it right? This boy was barking at me last night about hurting Ai'Gun and now he is saying sorry to me, "I talked to Ai'Title and Ai'White last night and tried to reflect on my actions." I nod my head listening to him while Ai'Gun is looking at this boy—like he is the only one in the room. Making me a bit uneasy.

"Look P'Hyuk—what you said with Ai'Gun hurts him—" "Hum—maybe I should start first na khrab~" but Ai'Gun cut him. I can't help but chuckled on how he cut this nong. I look at my brother who is looking at me now—his eyes are crystal clear. No grudges—no anger—just pure eyes looking straight at me, "I cried P'Hyuk not because you hurt me so much na khrab but because I am worried that P' might be so mad na khrab at me and I don't want P' to be mad at Ai'Gun because I love P'Hyuk—and I know that P' loves me—no—P' loves Ai'Cap and Ai'Gun so much—so maybe I thought you love me less now na P' because of my relationship with P'Mark~" I sigh in relief.