Shades Of Styles

Not My Harry Part 6 (Requested)

A/N: I wasn't going to do another part, sometimes I like to do sad endings because most 'imagines' are happy but because I don't get a lot of requests and these are imagines are for you all, I figured why not, so here goes

4 years. It's been exactly 4 years to the day that I took Sadie and left. She's 8 now and barely remembers her father and I'm glad. I wish I could forget him sometimes too.
It hasn't been 4 years since I've seen Harry though, he use to pop up every once in a while, drunk off his ass, sadness in his eyes. He's beg me to see her and be me to come back. But I refused every time. That was 2 and a half years since then, I haven't see him since. Not since we moved to the other side of he country. Once I moved here I started a new life for Sadie and I and it's worked out for the better. I haven't really been with anyone since Harry. I mean, I'm seeing a guy name Luke, he's an assistant at my job. We're not official or anything but we see each other daily and Sadie loves him, that's all I could ask for really. I just can't get myself to a place where a relationship would be okay for me. Luke is such a good guy and I like him a lot. In fact, right now he's picking Sadie up from her Girl Scouts meeting.

"Hey lovely lady" he greets me as he comes in, Sadie trailing behind him. He gives me a kiss on the cheek and then sits on the couch. "I'm thinking, you, me and Sadie should go see a movie tonight." He suggested and I nod.

"That sounds good. What movie?" I ask, plopping down next to him.

"The drive in is having a double feature of Frozen and Frozen 2. How about that?"

"That sounds good, she's never been to a drive in, it could be a cool experience for her." I shrug. "Dinner and a movie?" A smile spreads across his face.

"Sounds great. I'll tell Sadie." He stands, placing a kiss on my head and leaving the room. I get up to look for my keys when there's a knock on my door.
When I open it, I see a clean shaven, happy and healthy-Harry. I almost vomit before trying to slam the door in his face but his boot catches and I sigh, opening the door all the way. This won't end well.

"(Y/N) just listen." He urges and I roll my eyes.

"How did you find me? Why are you here?" I furrow my eyebrows, being kind of scared right now.

"I care to speak to you." He confesses.

"Well I don't want to speak to you." I tell him and try to shut the door again but he stops it with his hand.

"I'm not leaving until you agree to speak to me." Classic Harry. I roll my eyes again.

"Im busy-I have plans." I tell him honestly.

"Oh? With who?" He asks.

"None of your business. Now please leave.." I sigh, knowing that he won't. "Meet me at Lapur Diner tomorrow at noon. You can say whatever you want there." I groan. He nods and steps down the stairs and to his car.
I can't believe he just showed up, how in the hell did he find my house? Now I'm aggravated.

I could barely eat during dinner or concentrate on the movies the whole night. All I could think about was Harry and he wanted and how he knew where I lived. I'm going to have to move again.

I wake into the diner at 12 and I see Harry sitting at a window. He sees me immediately, as if he watched me walk in, which he probably did. He waves me over and with a huff I take a seat across from him.

"Make this quick, I told Luke I was out with an old friend." I explain, not looking at him.

"Luke?" He asks and I mentally roll my eyes at myself. I wasn't planning on telling him about Luke but here we are.

"No one- a friend." I sigh, finally looking at him.

"The guy you had plans with last night?" He pushes.

"Doesn't matter. What do you want?" I change the subject.

"I want us to be a family again (Y/N). I miss you. I miss Sadie." I explains. I let out a small laugh and look at him.

"Sadie? She doesn't even know who you are. She only has one memory of you it's you with a knife pressed to my throat. She has nightmares from that. How said is that, your own daughter only recognizes you from nightmares." I pause and watch his face but it stays smooth. "She calls you the nightmare man." I explain further and that seems to make his cool demeanor falter a little.

"I'm here to fix all of that." He finally says.

"Fix it? Fix the fact that 4 years ago you nearly killed me, my mom and your own daughter? There's no fixing that." I shake my head, upset at his words. "And you got off so easy-6 months in prison, for what? Child endangerment. Minor assault." I laugh to myself, still shaking my head. His fancy lawyers could have probably could have gotten him off he murdered me too."

"5 months. I got out on good behavior- that doesn't matter. I've changed, okay? A year and a half of therapists, AA meetings and rehab and I came out a completely changed person." He explains. I shake my head, still refusing to listen.
"That didn't happen until-" he pauses and pulls something from under the table. An envelope. "Until I got these. Divorce papers." He sighs. Ah, I forgot about those. I sent them in the mail and they never got signed. I didn't want to face him so I never set up a court date. We're only separated now. "I saw them and I saw myself. I saw the monster I had become. For a while I thought you were the reason I was so mad, you took my daughter and ran away. But then...I got these and I realized that it was me all along. And I swore I would get better for the both of you. I gave myself an extra year after the doctors approved my sobriety but it ended up only being half a year. I needed to see you. I needed you to know that I'm better now."

"Better? Harry are you fucking insane? You were a mental case. You could have-no you almost killed me in front of our 4 year old. You come back now and you think I'll just forgive and forget? Sadie doesn't even know who you are-and I wish I didn't either." I snap at him.

"I fucked up. I know. I was terrible to both of you. But I want to be better-for you and her. I want to prove that I am." He says calmly.

"I don't care what you want. I spent the last 4 years making up for what you did. Our lives were ruined because of you."

"(Y/N) I need you to see I'm the guy you loved and married all those years ago. Please?" He begs. I roll my eyes and stand up, I've had enough of this.

"Get over yourself." I begin to walk away and he grabs my rest, it's gentle. Not like how it use to be with so much-force. It's a gentle tug.

"Please, think about it?" He pleads. I look into his sad eyes and somewhere in there I see the Harry I loved once. I just give him a nod and he lets go of me before I leave the building.

On the way home I think of Luke and how he probably deserves to know about all of this. We've been seeing each other for almost half a year now. And I rather it come from me than Harry. Sadie has 3 hours before she's home from school so I text Luke to meet me at my house.

He gets there a little after I do and I let him in. He gives me a soft kiss on the cheek and I bring him to the living room.

"Luke, I really like you. And I can tell Sadie does too." I begin.

"I like both of you too. I see you both as family." He smiles.

"There's some stuff I've never told you. About Sadie's father. Stuff you should know." I sigh. I then begin to tell him everything. Harry and I falling in love, getting married, having Sadie. And then I get into the harder to talk about details, all the way up to Harry putting a knife to my neck and us leaving.
When I'm finished I watch him digest this new information.

"(Y/N)...that is- a lot to take in. But I'm so glad you told me." He says, taking my hand in his. "But I'm here for you, (Y/N)...I love you. And Sadie. I'll do anything to protect you both." He says and I suck in a breath. I can't believe he just said that.

"Luke I-" I try to figure out what to say.

"You don't have to say it back, it's not like we're together. I just think you should know." He explains.

"I'm sorry Luke, I just have so much-shit I can't let go of. Loving someone other than Sadie is...hard."

"I know, it's okay. You don't have to explain." He shakes his head and I nod.