Shades Of Styles

You start dating Niall

Niall just kissed me. Grant it, it was right after I just kissed him but still... Should I be doing this? It has been two years since Harry died. I love him, I really do with all my heart but I feel like I should move on. Niall is a nice guy, and hes really sweet. Hes stuck with me in these past years and I feel like I owe to myself and Niall to move on from Harry. It just seems so hard to do. Harry was the love of my life. Nothing could replace him...but maybe something could. 
"Niall." I whisper when he pulls away. 
"Yeah?" he is a deep shade of red right now. He probably felt the spark that I did. It was the spark that I thought I could only feel when Harry kissed me. 
"I think...I love you" I say quietly. 
"I love you too" he pulls me into his chest. This feels right. I feel like that missing piece was filled. He holds me close to his chest and we eventually fall asleep. 

The Next Day 

I wake up with Nialls arms wound around me tightly. I sleep through the night without dreaming of that night or Harry at all. I dreamed of Niall. I dreamed of the kiss we shared and the thought of finally being happy again. I smile at Niall whilst he is still sleeping. I don't want to wake him so I will just nuzzle my nose into his chest. 
"Good morning love" he whispers into my ear. 
"Mmm morning Niall" my smile grows. 
"I know we both just woke up but shouldnt we talk about last night?" Uh, oh was he having second thoughts or did I take that kiss all wrong. Maybe he kissed me because he just felt it would take my mind off of Harry. Am I to stupid to think I would just start dating Niall. I would get Harry and his best mate? How stupid could I be, how slutty could I be? 
"Umm, yea. I am so sorry for kissing you, I don't know what got into me" I apologize my smile fading. 
"Oh...I just thought. I thought it meant something. I mean, I defenitly felt something when we kissed." he rubs the back of his neck. "But if you don't feel the same" He did feel the way I did about the kiss. I felt the spark, the connection. 
"Niall. I felt something as well." my smile come back across my face. 
"Really?" 
"Yes" I nod my head. 
"So whats next then?" 
"I don't know" I shrug. I know Niall feels good about this but I still feel like a slut. Right after Harry dies I'm ready to jump on the next ship. Should I just tell Niall I don't want to be with him. I mean, we both do feel something there and I feel like I've fallen for him in the past 2 years but I just can't stop thinking of Harry. Like I'm cheating on him. 
"(Y/N). I think of any better way to ask you this so I'll just ask you. Will you...be my girlfriend?" he asks pulling me from my thoughts. What do I do? What do I say? Should I say yes but then I feel as if I'm cheating on Harry or say no and not move on and continue the nightmares and late night crys of self pity leaving Niall here to take care of me when he clearing wants to be doing something else. I feel there is only on true answer here, something that helps us both. Yes. Wow, how vain could I possibly be? Saying that going out with him helps us both when it clearly doesn't. Sure I can move on, stop having nightmares and crying to myself. Sure Niall will be able to do more and travel with 5 seconds of summer like he wants. But if I say no I will be burdening Niall. After all he did ask me, he wants this as well. I didn't realize that I hadn't answered him until I see him give me a worried look. 
"Yes Niall" I finally answer and he smiles. 
"Yay!! I just want to tell you, I've liked you for the longest time. Even when Harry was still alive" he confesses and I am surprised. 
"Really?" I ask. 
"Yeah...when Harry first brought us to meet you my jaw dropped. I thought you were the most gorgeous person. I wanted you so bad but you were with Harry so I always brushed it off and when you came around I distanced myself from you. You would not believe how hard it was for me to watch you say yes to Harry purposing but I can't blame you. Its not as if you knew I liked you and even you did you wouldn't have changed your mind." 
"You're right about that Niall. But its different. Things have changed" I shrug. I just noticed we are still in bed. How long have we been laying here? 
"I'm glad I can finally be with you" he smiles and pulls me kissing my lips gently. 
"Me as well" I say when he moves away. 
"I have to piss" he laughs and gets out of bed. I lay there just thinking about all the perks that are going to come with dating Niall...hes so perfect.