Shades Of Styles

The Other Man (Part 2)

"It's not that big of a deal!" I shout at Stephanie as she complains to me. She has no reason to be upset about this, it's not like we did anything. 

"You took your ex girlfriend home, I have every right to be angry with you Harry!" She defends her reasoning. 

"We didn't do anything. Her girlfriend left her behind and she needed a ride. I wouldn't cheat on you." I assure her. I wouldn't cheat on her or anyone, I couldn't live with myself if I did. Though I can't say some old feelings didn't resurface when I saw (Y/N). It felt like I was seeing her for the first time again but it also felt like it hadn't even been a day since the last time. I almost lost my breath the way she did. It made me realize that we didn't get the ending we deserved. 

I remember how it ended, I was 2 weeks into being on the X-factor, it was rough to not see her for so long. It looked like everything was going good for the boys and I. When we spoke on the phone for the last time she was upset that we couldn't spend the summer together. We ended up arguing and then I was the one who suggested we break up because I didn't have time to deal with her. She agreed angrily and then we hung up and never spoke again. She tried to get in contact with me once or twice a few days after that but I was too busy to even worry about calling her back. 

I never thought about how I would feel if I saw her again, I definitely wasn't expecting all of those emotions I felt to come up. But it was good seeing her again, I regret not apologizing to her about how ended. It must be a lot different from her side of the story. Theres a weight on my chest right now to think about how she feels seeing me again after all this time. 

I'm sure it will be harder to see her with Stephanie so upset about me even being near her. But I'm only in New York until the end of the week and I need to see (Y/N) just one more time before I go so I can apologize to her for everything. 

"You know what, Harry-it's fine. Do whatever you want. We're done." She yells at me and leaves the hotel room, slamming the door behind her. I let out a sigh and sit back against the couch. I'm not too upset about it, she does this every time I'm around another woman by myself. She acts like my career isn't surrounded by women or something. I'm use to this, I wouldn't cheat on her or even get close to it, no matter how I feel about someone else. 

That doesn't mean I can't get drunk now. I get up from the couch and go to the mini bar, grabbing literally everything and laying them out on the bed. I'm feeling too many emotions now, as I drink them away I feel better. 

Before I know it, I'm 3 mini bottles deep and calling (Y/N), hoping she answers. When she does I suck in a breath and try to gain control of my speech. When I do, I ask her if I can see her again and she says yes to my surprise. I ask her to come to me and she agrees to that too. I tell her where I am and she tells me she's on her way and then I wait for her as patiently as I can for being able to see my ex girlfriend again. 

After another 2 bottles, I'm laying across the bed trying to regain my vision when I hear a knock at the door. When I realize that it's (Y/N) I jump up out of the bed, grabbing all the bottles and trashing them as I go to the door. I open it and see her standing there, looking even better than when I saw her the other day. 

"Hey," She says in breathlessly. 

"Hi," I pull her in for a hug and I really hug her, engulfing her into my chest for a moment before she gags slightly and I realize I probably smell like a brewery. "Sorry," I say in an exhaled laugh. I move aside and let her walk in and go towards the couch. She takes a seat and sets her purse down next to her as she looks around the room. 

"This is a big hotel room." She says and then looks at me again. 

"It's actually a suite but yeah." I correct her and she nods. That was unnecessary-I'm an idiot. Theres silence for a moment, so I clear my throat to break it and sit down next to her. 

"Did you want to talk to me about something?" She asks me and I nod. 

"Uh-yeah...." I pause. This is so awkward, I'm half drunk and she's waiting for me to speak. I look at the bed and see the bottles that are left on the bed. I stand up quickly and grab one and offer it to her. She grabs it with a smile and opens it, taking a small gulp and cringing at the burn. I take my seat again and try my best to speak from the heart. 

"So...I wanted-no needed to see you again before I left New York. I need to apologize for everything that happened back then." I begin. She shakes her head to try to interrupt but I hold my hand up for a second and then lean in, grabbing her hand out of habit but she doesn't pull away. That warms my heart a little. "The way it ended wasn't right, I was an idiot for breaking up with you over the phone like that. You deserved so much better from me. We were in love and I chose music over you. For that I am so sorry." 

"You don't have to apologize for choosing music. You're amazing Harry, this life looks wonderful on you. It sucked the way we ended but we both moved on. Your girlfriend seems really nice." she tells me. 

"She's not my girlfriend anymore." I admit without thinking. 

"Oh no, what happened?" she questions, her hand tensing up in mine. 

"Nothing really, it doesn't matter. What about your girlfriend?" I try to change the subject. 

"I haven't really spoken to her since that night, I think I fucked up." She sighs. She takes another sip of her drink which quickly turns into her downing the entire bottle. 

"You didn't fuck up (Y/N), you told her how you felt. How she took it sucks but there isn't much you can do if she doesn't accept it." I shrug. It's really sad that Vanessa doesn't love her back, (Y/N) deserves the whole world after everything she's been through. 

"Yeah, I know. I just wish I could-I don't know...go back in time. I guess." She shrugs and looks down at our hands that are still intertwined. "Stop it from happening." There's silence for a moment and then we both slowly move closer to each other until our shoulders are almost touching. 

"I wish I could go back in time too," I admit. "Change how everything went for us." 

"What would you change?" She ponders before she bites her lip as she looks at mine. 

"I would have come to you...I would have told you how much I loved you. How I still-love you." I slowly say even though I'm not sure that's how I feel anymore. I definitely still feel something for her, something that was deep down in me that exploded forward when I saw her again. 

Her eyes search mine for a long time as she tries to find the truth behind my words, as if she's looking into my soul. I can't help but to feel myself gravitate towards her, my face getting closer and closer to her until our lips almost touch. I can feel her suck in a breath waiting for me to close the space completely, so I do. Our lips touch and we begin to kiss. It feels better than what I remember, I feel completely engulfed by her aroma and my head spins as I wrap my arms around her and pull her closer to me. 

This was a long time coming and I'm so glad its here. I don't know what this means or what will happen next but I don't need to dwell on it. I need to remember this moment as it's happening right now. She ends up pulling away from me and looking into my eyes. 

"I missed you," She says randomly. My face pulls up into a smile unwillingly, she smiles back at me right before I press my hand into the small of her back to bring her lips back to mine.