I hate to admit

New memories

"Minho...I was in one serious relationship, and it ended in a disaster. I was left broken; I was hurt and betrayed. I almost lost my ability to dance because of him...my ex." I whispered looking away, but Minho was quick to turn my face back to look at him.

"You know I am here for you Hyunjin, you just have to talk to me. I know I haven't opened myself up to you, but I feel like my past is nothing compared to you. When I was a child, I was abused a hundred times over and into my teen years. You were betrayed by the one you loved who you thought would never do such a thing. We should never have to be hurt by those we love, the ones who we trust." Minho wiped my tears away; I could still hear the rain pouring down behind me and my memories are threatening to seep into my mind.

Minho has been nothing but kind to me, he took me in and became my friend...my family he has brought me back so many times from my darkness.

Maybe it is time to start a new memory, something that can slowly take over the darkness.

I looked up at Minho and all I saw was someone who wanted nothing more than to be there for me, to love me. He has been there all along in front of me, and I didn't want to see it.

"Minho, being abused is nothing to put behind you. It stays with you just like my past stays with me, it haunts us no matter what. But maybe the both of us can help each other, you have been there for me always and I just brushed you off." I took a step closer to Minho.

"Someone is being brave today." Minho whispered. "I'm not brushing it off this time." I said with determination.

Minho's thumb grazed over my bottom lip; his eyes were trained on my lips. His eyes were brought back to mine, "You know you're so beautiful Hyunjin, let me show you how beautiful you are." Minho leaned in and pressed his lips to mine; it was a soft sweet kiss and was nothing like when he kissed me. It was the purest thing, and my mind was blank, there was no darkness that linked me to the rain anymore.

"Minho..." I whispered into the kiss.

The kiss deepened and I found myself wrapping my arms around his neck and not wanting to let go. Minho held me tight; my face was between his hands, and he was showing no sign of letting me go.

"It only took me a hundred times confessing to you, and now here we are." Minho smirked. "I guess it finally paid off." I chuckled. "But don't think we can become something just like that. This is new and I don't want anything to ruin what we have, especially Felix. He's fragile and precious Minho...we can't hurt him."

"I know, I just wanted this. To kiss you, to see how it felt and now I know it's the best decision I've made. Everything will be fine, take things slow besides you know how thrilled Felix will be." Minho smiled.

"Aww...about time you two." Felix came up to us. "How long have you been there?" I asked. "Mhmm long enough to know how much you care about me." "Come here you." I pulled Felix in between us and we smothered him.

"You know Lix nothing will ever change between us; we are all here together...we are family." Minho spoke softly. "Thanks guys, but now you two have each other and I have no one. I want to know how it feels to be kissed and looked at like the way you look at Hyunjin." Felix pouted.

God he was so fucking adorable, and now I just feel bad. Felix has never been in a relationship before, he was too scared because of his parents.

"This looks like a talk for you both, I know you prefer Hyunjin more Lix. I'm going to go get order some food for us and we can have dinner, maybe all snuggle up together on the couch and watch a movie?" Minho kissed Felix on the forehead and left.

With Minho in the other room and by now picking out a movie I pulled Felix over to the patio couch and sat down pulling him down next to me. Felix was sad and I can understand why, he pry thinks that things will change, and we won't have time for him anymore. Truth is Minho and I are not anything at the moment and I know at some point we will get to what we want to be, but for now Felix needs something.

"Felix, you know this...changes nothing. Minho and I are here and will always be here no matter what, and one kiss doesn't mean anything. We don't know what's going to happen now, but you are still our number one baby." I smiled ruffling his hair.

Felix looked at me like I was his everything, maybe he does have a crush on me but it's cute.

"Hyunjin..." Felix whispered. "What is it?" I looked at him curiously.

He was scared to ask me whatever it is he wants to ask, almost nervous. My little baby, Felix is our ray of sunshine and I hope he never lets that cloud over.

"I want to know what it feels like...to be kissed." Felix finally whispered. Oh Felix...

"I don't know what you what me to do Felix." I looked at him sadly. "I know I'm sorry...I didn't mean to ask such a thing, it's not like you can do anything about it anyways. I can just hope that someday I get the chance." Felix looked out into the distance.

Damn him and his cuteness.

"Felix, you really want to know how it feels?"

"Yes..." How could I say no to him. "Come here." I pulled Felix close to me and cupped his face in my hands, this is something I definitely don't do lightly.

I pressed my lips to his in a sweet gently kiss and then pulled away.

"When you kiss the person, you love it will feel a lot different Lix, it will feel like your heart will jump out of your chest. But now you can say you've been kissed." I smiled at him. "Hyunjin...you know you mean the world to me, and I want to thank you. Both of you have been there for me, but I'm glad you kissed me." Felix chuckled. "So, I am your favorite." I smirked.

"Hmm but of course." Felix grinned. "Now come on and let's go inside, I think the food is here."

When we walked inside Felix went straight to the living room and plopped down on the couch digging into the food.

"So, it took forever for me to kiss you and yet only a few minutes and Felix's puppy dog eyes." Minho stood behind me wrapping his arms around me. "I'm sorry, I just couldn't let him feel sad and you know I have a soft spot for him." I leaned back against him. "Seems like he does for you too."

Minho kissed my neck and just held me there as we watched Felix stuff his face, "Come on! Let's watch the movie." Felix yelled.

"He's cute. But you are my cute baby now." Minho whispered. "Minho... we have to take things slow." I replied. "I know, I'm just happy."

Minho took me by the hand and dragged me to the living room where we plopped down next to Felix smooshing him between us. The room was filled with Felix's giggles, and it was the most beautiful sound.