I hate to admit

See what I see

Chan

Laying here with Hyunjin hearing him say those things, I felt very uneasy about everything. To me it seems as if he was trying to tell me to save him from himself.

He wants to hurt himself, but he can never bring himself too, and I know I'll never let him.

Hyunjin had fallen back asleep, the storm was close now and I could start to hear the rain fall outside.

I slowly got up from the couch carefully not to wake him up, I took my phone out and stepped outside.

I waited for a bit before he showed up.

"Minho." I spoke.

"Thanks for calling me out in the fucking rain, where are we anyways?" Minho asked.

We had stepped around the corner, there was a smoking area for the smokers who lived here in the building, but it was quiet now and it gave us shelter from the rain.

We took a seat on the bench.

"Why am I here?" Minho questioned.

"I need you to stop being a fucking coward, if you remember or not, I don't care. Hyunjin needs you, he's falling apart. He's been thinking of hurting himself and this wouldn't be the first time either." I spoke.

"Why is this my concern? Maybe he just needs help." Minho replied.

"What he needs is you Minho, why can't you just give him a chance." "Because...I'm afraid." "Afraid of what." "If I do end up remembering...I don't think I could face Hyunjin. Felix told me I abandoned him, and he had no one, he was alone. How could I face that?"

Well, he's not totally heartless.

Just an ass.

"He loves you Minho, he doesn't care about that anymore all he wants is you. Can't you just try? For fuck sakes he's barely living right now, all he has is that damn cat. I've seen his fridge and there's no food in it even hell I've been paying the rent on his apartment, and he doesn't even know." I was definitely getting worked up right now.

"I had no idea, Felix never told me." Minho looked at me.

"Felix doesn't know, and it's better that way. You're not going to tell him either Minho, just give Hyunjin a chance and be there for him." "This is his apartment, isn't it? I thought you two weren't together." "We aren't, but I'm there for him when he needs me. I love him Minho, Hyunjin knows and Jisung knows too, and if you were yourself right now, you'd have beaten me up by now. Fuck you punched me way back when because I kissed him." "I wondered why I hated you, I'm sorry Chan Hyunjin seems great and all, but I don't know..."

Oh, Minho just wait until you actually get your memories back.

You'll really hate me then.

I just hope I can talk some fucking since into him.

"I'm here because he kept ignoring me and Jisung made me come over here and check on him, the only reason we know he's doing okay is because of his paintings. He's been selling them." I explained.

"So that's who the artist is." Minho's voice trailed off.

"I'm going to go back in there and be with him, I hope by tomorrow you can come to your senses." I looked at Minho.

"Don't worry Chan, I'll be seeing him in a few days anyways. I have to make room for something back at my place." Minho got up and walked off.

No idea what he was talking about but whatever, as long as I know he's going to try I don't fucking care.

Their love story is far from over, Hyunjin doesn't have a happy ending, but he has a miracle ending waiting for him.

When I went back inside Hyunjin was still sound asleep, I was a little wet from the rain, but I just took my clothes off and hung them up to dry.

Hyunjin himself must have gotten warm because he was without a shirt, I quietly and carefully got back on the couch behind Hyunjin pulling him into me and wrapping my arm around him.

The storm was here now, and the wind had picked up, the rain was falling, and it was soothing in a way. I was quickly fading away, but before Hyunjin turned on his side and now he was facing me.

I couldn't help but take in all his features, his pouty pink lips and his long hair falling in his face, his smooth skin, toned muscles.

I fell for more than just his looks, it was his dancing that drew me in and once I got to know him his personality is what really made me fall for him.

His looks were just a bonus.

I can't say why Minho fell for him but I'm sure he saw the same things.

And I hope he can see them again.