I hate to admit

Take one

"So Lix you going to tell us how your date was?" I asked.

When Felix went out the other night with Jisung he never said how things went, he went straight to his room and went to bed.

It's been two days now.

"It was fine Hyunjin, we had a great time." Felix replied.

"Something is up what is it?" I asked.

Last night Minho was up late working on stuff, and I was in my own room for sleeping, Felix had snuck in and cuddle in beside me, something he hadn't done for a while now.

When morning came, he was stuck to me like glue, I knew something had to be off with him, but he has been quiet since the other night.

When I turned around, I saw tears in Felix's eyes, but he was trying hard to hide them.

I wrapped my arms tight around him, "You know Felix, you can tell me anything." I spoke softly.

"I don't want to talk about anything Jinnie okay, just promise me you'll always be there for me." Felix sniffled. "Oh Lix, I promise you anything."

We laid like that for a while until Minho popped his head in.

"Hey, I don't mean to interrupt your...whatever is going on here, but we have to get going." Minho spoke.

I nodded my head and shooed Minho out the door.

I petted Felix's head for a few seconds and told him we had to get up and going, today we would be working on the music video set, and everything had to be perfect. We were basically there to make sure 3racha got all the moves down right and to help guide them. When it comes time for our song collab then we will be in the video with them. Apparently, we are doing a video for that too, it was last minute and of course Chan agreed to it, somehow, I have a not so good feeling about all of this.

I eventually got Felix up and to his room, he was going to take a shower and then get ready.

I just went ahead and got dressed, I figured I'd take a shower after everything later. After I got dressed, I went downstairs, and Minho was gathering up his things.

"Hey everything good up there?" Minho nodded towards the stairs.

"Yeah...I don't know what's going on Min, it's kind of scaring me." I replied.

"Well, we will give him some time and then maybe he will talk to us. At least he will talk to you hopefully." Minho snickered at the last part.

"Oh, come on Min we have been over this, no need to get salty." I chuckled.

Minho rolled his eyes and walked over to me, he kissed me and then said he'd be waiting in the car for us.

"Well, I guess there's no one to greet us today." I mumbled.

We arrived at the set and made our way in; the set was all bright lights and expensive looking equipment. These guys definitely do not mess around, I can only imagine what their budget is like.

"Hey guys you made it!" Changbin came over and greeted us.

"Uh yeah here we are, so what's the plan for today?" I asked.

"Right uh well we are shooting a few scenes today; some does acquire our dance breaks that's why you guys are here. So as lame as it is to pry just sit there on the sidelines and watch us, you also are here to guide us in case we mess up on some parts and what not." Changbin explained.

"Fuck who cares if we can sit on the sidelines and watch, I think it will be cool. It's not every day you get to be behind the scenes of a 3racha music video. And we will be glad to help you on anything." I spoke.

"Well, you think you can be one of our back up dancers?" Chan walked over standing behind Changbin. "One of our dancers went home sick and we need one like now."

Minho came up and stood next to me almost protectively, he placed his hand on the small of my back. "Felix here is just as good, I'm sure he'd love to." Minho spoke up.

"No that's okay, Hyunjin is by far better than me." Felix replied.

"Lix...no. You are an amazing dancer." I went over and cupped his cheek. "I know something is wrong and you can take your time. I can step in for them if you want me too." "It's your decision Jinnie, but I think it would be great for you." Felix managed a small smile. "Just for you okay." I ruffled his hair and he smiled.

Seeing him smile for the first time in days was a good thing and it really brightened up my day for sure.

"Fine I'll step in but I'm not doing it for you." I spoke glaring at Chan.

Felix and Minho went to go sit down in their reserved chairs and I went back to go get my hair and makeup done. I don't know how I feel about this whole thing, but I think it's no coincidence that just one of their back up dancers went home sick.

Whatever though, I will think of it as a way to work my way up the ranks and keep an eye on Chan. I still feel weird about this whole thing and Felix changing all of a sudden.

Once I got back from getting my hair and stuff done, I went over to my boys and Felix lit up at the sight of me.

"Wow! You look amazing Jinnie, you're going to be the star instead." Felix chuckled.

"Aw thanks Lix. Cheer me on yeah." I smiled.

"For real though you look like a completely different person. I know you'll be great out there; I mean just watching them now is unreal so when it's your turn the whole thing will be even better." Minho gently kissed me.

I stood back with Minho and Felix and watched the first few takes of 3racha on set, their acting was amazing, and their rap skills were on a whole other level and then throw in the vocals too.

I was watching Jisung and he definitely did not seem all there, but he was doing a very good job of hiding it. Changbin was going off and Chan well he's Chan.

He's good at just about everything.

Felix was trying hard not to glance over at Jisung every now and then and I definitely sensed some tension.

Minho was thoroughly enjoying the whole thing; it was like he was taking notes or something.

No doubt giving him ideas.

I however was also enjoying the whole thing but at the same time I know this means me spending a little extra time with dear Channie boy and I don't fucking like it one bit.

Sure, there's Jisung and Changbin and the off-chance Minho and Felix will still be there behind the scenes, but something tells me that there might be sometimes without any of them.

Most of the time these music video shoots only take about a few days or so tops, but like I said something feels very off.