I hate to admit

I'll be the bad guy

Minho

Before our contract ended with TXT, I was contacted about doing some work for a major group, they wanted me and the boys to work with this group for their upcoming new album.

I was about to say no but once they told me who the group was, I jumped at the chance, I knew Felix was a big fan and I also knew how good they were and thought this could be a good opportunity for us to get our name out there. Don't get me wrong we have worked for plenty of top name artists and groups but this one is Seoul's leading group.

They are big in every country, but they belong in Seoul, their leader has never revealed their real name unlike the other two members and not even Hyunjin has bothered to look them up and see their faces. Felix has them plastered over his walls in his bedroom and never wants anyone to come into his room.

I was given the strict privilege of knowing each individual's name both stage and real, when revealed to me the leader's name it gave me chills and not the good kind either. There was something about his name that felt off, it didn't sit right with me. I mulled it over and over again until it finally hit me.

Hyunjin had briefly mentioned his ex's name once and that was when he was in a dark state, one of his darkest moments. It was the time when I really fell for him, I didn't pity him and I didn't feel sorry for him, but I wanted to protect him. Hyunjin still haven't told me everything, but his ex broke him, left him scarred and knowing who he is now makes it so fucking hard.

This contract means a lot and it can further put our names on the map, once Hyunjin finds out there's no turning back. He can hate me, and he will, I will have hurt him, and I fought so hard to get him by my side. Seems selfish right?

I love Hyunjin and I know for a fact this will make me the bad guy, I just hope at some point he can see I did this for us, for all of us.

It's so close now, soon we will go to 3rachas's concert and soon after we will meet them and go over the contract and start working with them.

Felix will be overjoyed.

Hyunjin will be hurt.

I will be the bad guy.

I hope however Felix doesn't have to know about any of the bad stuff, he doesn't need to get caught up in this mess that will be.

When I left Hyunjin in his room, Felix cuddled up by his side all I wanted to do was stay there and protect them both. I really wanted to just be the two of us and continue our getting to know each other more, continue to explore each other.

At some point I'm going to have to let Hyunjin in myself, I'm keeping my past a secret just as much as he's keeping his secret. If I want us to be more intimately involved, then I have to show myself to Hyunjin and all my scars.

I know he will love me just as much and won't turn away from me, but I know he will turn away from me anyways after knowing what group we will be working with. Maybe he will finally let me in.

I don't even think Hyunjin knows about his ex being one of the top rappers in Seoul and leading one of the biggest groups.

Just knowing who his ex is you wouldn't think he would have been such an asshole, but rumors sure do fly around about him. Showing his sweet and kind self on stage and in front of fans while his true self is off camera, the rumors though don't make his fans turn from him instead they keep growing. The groups fans and his own fans are numerous and not a single one gives a damn about all the shit he does.

He almost took away Hyunjin's dream.

Hyunjin had mentioned he had been in the hospital; he hadn't said for what exactly, but I can only assume he had something to do with it.

I have seen the scar on Hyunjin's leg and as much as he tries to hide it, he fails miserably.

I've only scratched the surface with Hyunjin and soon I will be back where I first started.