I hate to admit

Personal

Well today is the day.

Felix was too hyped up, but it was a good thing, the other day he hung out with Jisung and since he has been a totally different person. He's happier and not down on himself as much as he was, he's been good. Hell, if Jisung can make him like this than let's hope everything goes well, last thing we need is for everything to go south.

I took a shower and then got dressed, we weren't doing anything to complicated today. As far as I know we are meeting up with 3racha and just going over everything and the scheduling. I know there will be the dance and choreography, along with photoshoots and the music video and I think there will be some kind of an interview thing.

Minho has put a hold on taking any other contracts while we are working with 3racha, he said this was our top priority right now.

The past few days have been rather lonely, Minho and I had pressed pause. I don't even have him coming after me like he used to, he's been keeping his distance which I am grateful for but at the same time I miss him. I know it was my decision but after everything my trust issues have taken over. I want to believe Minho and everything that he's said, I want to believe he just didn't do this for fame for himself. I don't want to happen with Minho that happened to Chan, I don't think I could take it this time.

"Oh, there you are." Minho spoke up.

Minho was at the table; he must have made breakfast for us.

"I'm here." I replied softly. "You, okay?" Minho asked. "Mhmm."

Felix showed up shortly after, it was almost as if he was glowing. He was a whole different person, and it was a nice change, he was humming a song as he sat down at the table and if I wasn't mistaken it was one of J.One's songs.

"You've been in a good mood a lot these days." Minho smiled.

"Have I?" Felix smirked. "Doesn't even sneak into my room anymore." I pouted. "Jinnie, don't be sad. If I have a boyfriend, I don't think he would like that anyways." "And do you?" "No! I am hoping it turns into something though...but I'm also scared." "Aw Lix, it'll be okay besides he seems like a good person."

I hope to God he is a good person.

Felix needs someone who can take care of him and be there for him and love him unconditionally.

"I'm sure he is Hyunjin." Minho looked over at me.

I couldn't help but to look away, it seems like every time he looks at me it just doesn't feel the same anymore.

"Are you two good?" Felix snapped me out of my thoughts.

"Yes, don't worry Lix." Minho replied. 

Felix looked at me and then back at Minho and then back at me. Felix wasn't dumb, he can clearly sense something was wrong.

"I'm going to go gather my things and then we can get going." I got up from the table and went up to my room.

When we arrived at the studio where 3racha works we were greeted by the cheerful chubby cheeked boy known as Jisung. His eyes immediately lit up as he spotted Felix and it was cute, I wish everything was as simple as that.

"You're here! I can't wait to start working with you guys!" Jisung exclaimed.

"And we are just as excited as you are, especially this one." Minho nudged Felix who was shy as all hell.

Jisung had the biggest smile on his face, he took Felix by the hand and pulled him closer to him. "Aw someone is shy." Jisung whispered. Even I heard that, and Felix just giggled.

"Alright follow me and we will meet the other two." Jisung spoke up.

Minho and I had followed behind Jisung and Felix into the building, I guess you could say they are the top leading group.

Our studio was nothing compared to theirs, it made ours look like some off brand shit.

We were led down though the lobby and then took an elevator up to the next floor and then walked down a hallway until we got to the end. Jisung opened the door, and we followed inside.

The room was huge, I wouldn't call it like a formal meeting room or anything it was more casual. There were awards lined up on one wall along with their albums and posters everywhere. On one side of the room as a bar, and along the wall opposite was a pool table, on the far side of the room sat a drum set and guitars, even a piano. The middle of the room had a decent size seating arrangement with small end tables and a large table in the middle which consisted of Chan's laptop and scattered papers. Last but not least there was a balcony with a pretty good view and an actual hot tub as well.

I guess this is what his fame gave him.

"Nice to see you all again." Chan held out his hand to Minho.

"Yes, the pleasure is ours." Minho took his hand.

"Oh! Hyunjin I recently came across your choreographed dance of 'Motley crew' by Post Malone and I gotta say man it was pure fire." Changbin walked over to me.

"Really?" I asked surprised. "Yes, like I'm jealous of how good you dance. I would never have of guessed you were in any sort of accident that almost cost you your dance career."

"It took some time, but I got there." I looked over at Minho.

Minho gave me a small nod and I turned my attention back to Changbin.

"Your rap however is definitely lit." I smiled. "Ha well thank you, it said in your file you also know how to sing?" "Uh yes I suppose so, I can rap as well." "Damn well I'd love to hear you some time!" "Would be my pleasure."

I knew Chan's gaze was on me when my accident was mentioned but I didn't dare look at him, I however wanted to make sure Minho knew it was him who helped me get through everything.

"Where's Lix?" Minho asked.

I turned and looked around then spotted the blonde outside with Jisung. "Looks like they are in their own world." I nodded towards the balcony.

Minho and Changbin both chuckled but I looked over at Chan who seemed bothered by the whole thing.

"Yeah, well I know the other day Felix went to hang out with Jisung and came back home a completely different person. I think Jisung is good for him." I spoke up.

"Seems that way for Jisung as well." Chagbin replied with a smile.

"Yeah, well I think personal relationships should be put aside especially during the work period. We can't let anyone's feelings get in the way." Chan snickered.

"I suppose personal relationships can get in the way, but they can also be good, sometimes those feelings can be the best thing. I guess in other times though feelings can be one sided, but for those two their feelings are mutual." I glared at Chan.

He knew exactly what I was getting at.