I hate to admit

Ugly truth

"Hey you!" Some boy came over to me.

"Uh yeah?" I replied.

"I'd be careful around Chan if I were you." The boy said.

I don't know who this boy thinks he is, talking to me like he is trying to warn me of something that I don't already fucking know.

"Look thanks but I don't even know you, so don't talk to me about Chan." "Look all I'm trying to say is he knows how to get around, I was 'sent' home, and I just came back to get my stuff." "Oh, so you were the backup dancer I presume."

He wasn't bad looking per say, a little on the average side but he had a puppy like look to him.

I was on my way out when this boy stopped me.

"Oh, so you weren't actually sick then. What he do fire you?" I snickered.

"Not fired just not in this video is all, I have a contract with them. However, I was foolish enough to fall under his charm as did one of my friends. My name is Seungmin by the way." Seungmin held out his hand.

I hesitated for a moment but then I took his hand, and we shook.

"I'm Hyunjin and believe me I was under his charm for a few years a long time ago. So, I know how it goes, I know how he works. This now is just something for him to do, to get under my skin, he knows I'm seeing someone, and he can't take it." I replied.

"Oh, uh I'm sorry, I guess then you know what to expect." Seungmin spoke.

"Yeah, but thank you for telling me, and I'm sorry you had to experience that." I nodded towards Chan's direction who was gathering his stuff up. "Well, I'd love to see you dance sometime, maybe you can come to our studio sometime."

Seungmin smiled, a genuine smile too. There was nothing fake about it, "Thank you I appreciate that."

Seungmin then turned around and walked out.

I myself turned around and Chan was smirking, what an asshole. I shook my head and then left myself but not before I eyed Jisung who just nodded enough for me to notice.

"I don't fucking like it one bit!" Minho yelled.

I know I should have been prepared for this but when Minho gets angry, he gets scary. I already knew this wasn't going to end well.

"Minho calm down, you're scaring Felix." I looked over at Felix who just had his head down and was fidgeting with his fingers.

"Sorry Lix but can you go upstairs please, I need to talk to Hyunjin." Minho pinched the bridge of his nose.

"Y-you can't blame Hyunjin! Don't get angry at him, don't yell at him." Felix shouted before going upstairs.

Poor Felix, I never want him to get in the middle of anything especially a fight with Minho and me. I mean what was I expecting to happen anyways? Minho hates Chan and I fully loathe the guy, but this is purely just work. Minho got us into this contract, and I told him we weren't going to end it.

"Why did you say yes?" Minho glared at me.

"Because it's just a job Min, it's a chance for me to shine okay. Sure, I'm a backup dancer but sometimes that's where a lot of dancers start." I tried to explain. "Yeah, okay I get that but a scene with just him Hyunjin come on. You know how he is."

I know more than you do.

"You don't fucking get to lecture me on that, I know fully well. Need I remind you that you 'knew' who Chan was when you took this job." I tried to keep my tears at bay. 

"I know-" 

"No, you don't know. In all honesty I thought he was the love of my life, like there was no one else out there for me. I endured all the shit because I thought I just wasn't good enough, I thought I was the problem. I thought sure he loved me but just had a shitty way of showing it. The more I endured the more I got tired and knew it wasn't me, Chan took the fame over me, he left me alone with my leg bleeding out on the fucking floor. I had to crawl to get to my phone that was in the fucking bedroom, I was tired and just thought that if I laid there just a few seconds longer maybe I would have bled out. I didn't care at that point."

I couldn't take it anymore; my tears gave way and Minho stood there like he didn't know what to do. I really almost didn't want to make the call, the call for the ambulance to come and get me.

Before pushing myself to crawl the last few inches I laid there and really contemplated it.

"He made my life hell Minho, so if you think I'm doing this just for kicks then you are fucking stupid. I'm putting my personal shit aside and I'm going to be the professional that I am and fucking deal with it. And you should too." I turned around only to be met with watery brown eyes.

Felix was sitting on the steps, fuck he had to have heard everything.

I was eventually going to tell him after I talked to Jisung but I guess it's too late now.

"Felix..." I spoke softly.

"H-he did that to y-you." Felix stuttered.

I walked over to him and wrapped my arms around him, he full on let it all out. I could feel the wetness seep through my shirt.

"Shhh, it's okay Lix, alright. Go upstairs okay, let me finish talking to Minho." I stroked his hair.

I pushed Felix back slightly and tried to wipe his eyes, God he was so pure. Felix stood up, I could tell he was shaking but then he turned around and walked back up the stairs.

"Hyunjin, I'm sorry." Minho tried to say.

"This is the dumbest thing ever you know that, how many times do we have to go over this. How many times do we have to let Chan get between us? It's done and over with Minho, just let it be." I spoke.

"No, I can't. I thought I was dumb to try every day and win you over, tell you how I felt about you only for you to reject me every time. I was okay with that because I knew you weren't ready for anything, because you had a troubled past. I thought my past was bad because I endured my own father beating me every god damn day, he took a knife across my skin time after time, and he used his belt and whip. My skin was torn, shredded and bloodied and all because I wanted to be a dancer and I never strayed from that, so I took it until I was old enough to run away. Even then sometimes he still found me, but I learned I could hold my own against him. So, I endured your rejection everyday Hyunjin, I'm glad you decided to let me in even though I pretty much fucked it up right off the bat."

Minho walked over to me and took my face between his hands; his thumbs wiped my tears away and as I looked at him, I could tell he was fighting his own.

"Minho, I just wanted you to trust me is all." My voice trembled.

"I know and I'm sorry. I love you Hyunjin, I just wanted to protect you." "And I wanted you to talk to me, it took for this to tell me about your past. I really hope we can come back from this."

Minho leaned in and kissed me.

This by far wasn't over but I didn't want to fight anymore, we both pretty much got everything out that we wanted to but now I have to go talk to Felix.

I kissed Minho back and wrapped my arms around him, pulling him close to me I then nuzzled my face into the crook of his neck.

"Can we stop fighting about him please." I spoke, my voice muffled.

"I hope to God we can, I want to be there when you guys do your scene." Minho replied.

"I wouldn't have it any other way."

I knew from here on out it wasn't going to be easy and as long as we are doing this contract Chan will always be there, if not in person, then in the back of our minds.

Mine especially.