I hate to admit

New memories

"Hey losers." I smiled as I walked in the studio.

"Jinnie!" Jisung beamed.

"Hey baby." Chan spoke.

I just rolled my eyes and smacked him.

"Chan, Jisung is your baby not me." I replied. "I beg to differ, I'm baby boy." Jisung chuckled.

I went over and sat down next to Chan and Jisung, Chanbgin was in the booth working on a song.

"How's everything coming?" I asked.

"Great actually, almost done with the album and then in a week we go overseas." Jisung spoke.

"I'm excited for you guys, I'm happy. Has Changbin allowed Felix to come with?" I questioned.

"He hasn't said yes yet, but we know he won't say no, he can't be without Felix for like a day. They are truly inseparable, but it's cute." Jisung replied.

"How about you Jinnie? Want to come with?" Chan looked at me.

"No thank you, thank you for actually asking this time." I glared at him.

Chan just laughed and Jisung looked between the both of us knowing that it had something to do with our past.

"So, Minho?" Chan asked.

"He was the buyer, and he bought it. And paid me more than I asked for which wasn't much but it's getting me back on my feet. Also, we are taking one step at a time with each other, he actually made the first move." I explained.

"Aw baby that's great, maybe things will start to look up for you and who knows maybe you guys can just move back in together. I know it'll take some time to get there but at least it's something." Chan spoke.

Jisung smiled at me and gave me a side hug and then he got up to go help Changbin with something.

"What if he never remembers though?" I looked at Chan.

"If he doesn't then it's a whole new fresh start, you'll know all the past memories Jinnie, and you can share them with him. I think making new memories though is just as great, things will work out okay. Just be patient." Chan cupped my cheek.

"Well, it's only been a few days since he came over and bought the painting, we have been texting a lot but nothing that shows 'hey wanna date' type of thing. I don't know where we stand because sure we had the dare kiss and then he kissed me that night he came over and that's that." "If Minho made that move then he knows you're worth something baby, maybe ask to hang out this weekend. Felix will be with Changbin and Jisung and I are going out of town, so it's perfect for the both of you. I say go over to his house and have a fucking date."

I kissed Chan on the cheek and then rested my head on his shoulder, I honestly don't know what I'd do without him now.

Everything that's happened between us is almost nonexistent, it'll never fully go away, but everything now is slowly taking over those painful past memories.

Chan and I have been through so much together, and I honestly think our bond now is strong and even though I hate him still I also love him, and I think that overpowers the hate.

Call me fucked up or stupid but Chan was my first love and although he hurt me in every way possible, he changed over time and for the better and Jisung of course had something to do with that.

I can't blame him though.

I just wasn't what Chan really needed and that's okay.

I hope however I can change things with Minho.

"Baby look at me." Chan spoke softly.

I sat up and looked at Chan.

"If he doesn't know your worth than to hell with him. If he does know your worth, then fucking marry him. Don't let your love story end. Ours may be over but there's always a shred of it still there, even if you and Minho get back together, I won't hesitate to let him know or show him that you still mean the fucking world to me. I believe you and Minho are true end game though, just know that I'll always be there for you okay." Chan said.

"Channie...thank you for everything. And Jisung too. I love you." I whispered.

Chan just smiled at me and then leaned in and gave me a peck on the lips.

I then got up and left the studio.

I honestly don't know if everything is moving too fast or not, Minho has been more than patient with me the past few days.

I even joked with him about that, he was always patient with me no matter what.

Felix had mentioned to him that he confessed to me everyday way back when and he never gave up.

Minho did agree to spending the weekend together which I was thankful for and didn't mind if I came over to his place, but I told him I had to bring Leebit along.

He definitely had no problem with that, he told me he was thinking about getting a cat or two maybe three. He said eventually Felix won't be there anymore as him and Changbin have already talked about moving in together which I think they should.

Minho said he would need some company then so why not have a house full of cats!

When I arrived at his house, I was kind of nervous, I know I lived here once, and it just feels weird I guess...I don't know.

"Hey Hyunjin, little Leebit." Minho took the cat carrier from me and let me in.

I sat Leebit's things down and then my bag.

I watched as Minho let Leebit out of his carrier and he launched out of it and ran.

"He's not too fond of car rides so he likes to run as soon as he gets out." I spoke.

"No worries, I got a litterbox for him hope you don't mind." Minho looked at me.

"Oh no that's fine, it was actually something I failed to think of before I came over." I chuckled.

Minho just smiled then he took my bag and started going towards the stairs.

"I know you lived here once, and your room is still here but I'm going to put your things in my room." Minho said as he disappeared up the stairs.

Was not expecting that but it's fine by me.

The place hasn't really changed much over the years, he even kept up all the pictures of us and the three of us.

I think I noticed a few new nick knacks and what not but overall, everything was the same and I was actually kind of grateful for.

I found myself walking towards the kitchen but to the back door.

I always was calmer when I was outside, rain or not it was like my safe place I guess.

And believe it or not it was gloomy outside and a little foggy out with a slight mist, the air wasn't too cold, however.

"Well, Leebit found the litter and seems to be settling in nicely." Minho spoke making me jump. "Sorry didn't mean to scare you."

"Oh no it's fine, it's actually what you were good at. Thank you though for thinking of my cat, he does seem to really like you." I smiled.

I turned back around to face the backyard which was still the same.

I felt Minho standing behind me now and it all felt so familiar yet so new.

"Let's make the most of this weekend." Minho whispered in my ear.