I hate to admit

An asshole and his bitch

Jisung

After the we got back home from the set Changbin went straight into work mode as per usual and Chan went up to his room.

When Hyunjin talked to me I was actually kind of terrified and when he said he had to talk to me alone whenever that may be I was even more terrified.

He knows something is up and from what I can gather I don't think Felix has said anything yet.

I honest to God hate how everything happened, we were having a great time on our date, and it was the perfect night up until it wasn't. Felix wasn't dumb, he shows that he isn't bothered by much, but he had something on his mind that was troubling him.

Felix had something to get off his chest and he wanted to talk to me about it.

I listened and I couldn't lie to him.

Felix was someone who I had always wanted, I thought Chan was someone who I wanted, and I always have him in the back of my mind. Felix made me forget things, he was pure and innocent, he had a kind soul and a warm heart who has definitely had his own troubled past.

He had told me a bit about his problems, and I wanted nothing more than to be the shoulder for him to lean on. Felix made me feel good, made me feel like I wasn't some second or third choice and didn't want me just because I was there.

I know Felix hadn't been with anyone intimately before, I mean it was obvious, but I wasn't judging him. He had told me about his past few relationships and how they always ended because either Felix was too ashamed of himself, or the other person just wanted sex.

Felix had mentioned that he had overheard plenty of Hyunjin's and Minho's conversations and when my name came up and Chan's then had figured he had to tell me about it.

I didn't know much still about Chan and Hyunjin's relationship but from what I gathered it was definitely most toxic.

Felix was definitely upset and hated that he hadn't talk to Hyunjin and Minho himself but when he heard my name come up in those conversations, he didn't want to keep it to himself.

I'm pretty sure I know why Hyunjin wants to talk to me, he had already told me if I hurt Felix, he would be coming for me, but I didn't hurt Felix per say but I did tell him that we shouldn't be in a relationship with so many secrets hanging around us.

I didn't have it in me to even fully tell Felix about me and Chan.

Shit is going to hit the fan though when it comes to Chan and Hyunjin's scene for our music video, I assume by now Minho has found out and talked to Hyunjin about it already and now as much as I hate myself for doing this, I'm going to go to Chan now.

When I went up to Chan's room his bedroom door was slightly ajar, I knocked on the door first and then peered inside.

Chan was on his bed; laptop was open, and he was actually working this time. From what I can tell he was going over the footage from today, among other things.

"Jisung please just don't stand there, if you have something to say then fucking say it." Chan spoke not even looking up from his laptop.

"No need to be a dick." I spat.

"Isn't that what I'm good at?" He looked up at me. "Yeah, you are."

I went over to him and sat down; I closed his laptop, and he was very annoyed. He hated it every time I did that.

"So, what's your goal here?" I asked.

"What are you on about?" Chan gave me a look.

"Well for starters booting Seungmin off and having Hyunjin replace him and then to have him be the dancer for your scene in the video. Not to mention your clear history with Hyunjin, and you know damn well this would get between him and Minho." I explained.