I hate to admit

DEAD

Minho

"I don't know what I was expecting here, Hyunjin had clearly explained the whole scene they were doing but yet seeing it in person was something completely different.

After everything I just don't get how Hyunjin could get the close and personal with him, I am extremely proud of Hyunjin, and he was amazing out there. On the other hand, I just can't explain how Hyunjin would touch him like that, be that intimate with him. I know it's just a dance but still it bothers me.

I had to get out of there and I don't think I could have watched anymore, it was only the run through, and it didn't even have any of the props or anything.

Something feels off to me, I feel like Chan has something up his sleeve. At the same time, I can't bring myself to go back in there.

Fuck Hyunjin didn't even come after me.

"Minho!" I heard someone yell for me.

"Oh Jisung." I replied.

"Hey, I know Chan and Hyunjin's dance wasn't what you had in mind to watch but I don't think you should leave yet. Stay and watch the shoot, be there for Hyunjin at least." Jisung placed his hand on my shoulder.

"I know you mean well but I can't sit there and watch Hyunjin all over Chan. It's a dance scene and part of the video but still I can't. And no offense but you shouldn't even try and be nice to me, you hurt Felix somehow and I know he won't talk about it." "Not offended but I realized that I still had unfinished business with Chan, and I didn't want Felix to get caught in the middle."

I guess Jisung and Chan do have something going on or at least did.

"You really care about Felix I can see that. Do you even know half the shit about Chan and Hyunjin's relationship? Chan hurt him emotionally, mentally, verbally and physically. Hyunjin dropped everything for him, and he didn't give two shits. So, I think you should really talk to Chan and then maybe you'll understand everything. You're a good guy Jisung but don't fall for Chan's charm."

As I said that last part, I knew it was already too late, it's clear as day that Jisung really cares about Chan and it's clouding his judgement over Felix.

I also know Felix tries to see the good in everyone and probably has some excuse to as why Jisung left him.

"Just go back in there and support you boyfriend Minho." Jisung said before he turned around and walked off.

I knew I regretted it the moment I saw Hyunjin.

In all honesty he looks hot as hell, his hair and makeup makes him look so damn attractive but his outfit takes the cake.

In my opinion this part of the video doesn't make sense period, sure the verse goes with the song but just the scene and dancing alone doesn't. I know these days music videos don't match up with the song or the message, but this takes the cake.

Chan on the other hand as much as I hate to say it looks damn good as well.

Fuck both of them look amazing.

I walked over and took my seat next to Felix again like I did before.

"You're back." Felix smiled at me.

"Yeah, well Jisung talked me into it." I looked back at him. "Oh...um well I'm glad you're back to see Hyunjin actually perform the full thing." "I am too as much as I hate it, I know Hyunjin is good Lix there's no doubt about it but just Chan in general." "I know Min and I'm sorry but just be here for Jinnie that's all that matters." Felix tried to comfort me.

I watched as the lights dimmed and the director take his position and started filming.

Chan walked slowly to grab the chair and drag it to the center of the area; he sat down, and he started singing. He was singing as if he was trying to tell someone something, Hyunjin started off his dance just behind Chan a few feet away from him, as the song went on Hyunjin made his way closer and closer to Chan.

As much as I hated it the whole thing seemed emotional, and Chan's voice was amazing. The best part was Hyunjin though. He moved with such emotion himself and everything was flawless and perfect.

Soon enough Hyunjin was in on Chan's lap and so began the intimacy.

It took everything in me to keep my eyes on them and not look away. As Chan was nearing the end and his voice was slowly fading, Hyunjin finally pushed himself off of Chan standing up and kicking the chair back. 

Hyunjin walked behind Chan and his body was flesh against Chans as his hand came up to grab Chan's throat, the song ended but not the scene.

"I thought that was the end of it?" I questioned.

Chan's hand came up to grab Hyunjin's and he slowly lowered it.

Still holding on to Hyunjin's hand he pulled him forward, so he was standing front of him. Chan brought his hand up to cup Hyunjin's cheek and let it linger, Hyunjin was making no move to push him away and it was starting anger me, but I know Hyunjin is a professional and the camera is still rolling.

"Min? What's going on." I heard Felix speak softly.

"Chan is being Chan and trying to get to Hyunjin, he had this planned all along." I replied.

What I wasn't ready for is what happened next.

Lights went out for a minute but then they turned on, everything was brighter than it was before. I knew this was bad from the beginning but this...takes the cake.

Changbin was clapping and shouting, Jisung was utterly shocked, and Felix was speechless.

I was feeling every emotion there was in the book.

Hyunjin was frozen in place and didn't know what to do, the worst part was Hyunjin staying utterly calm, he wasn't even yelling or pushing Chan away.

Bang fucking Chan.

I. am. going. to. kill. you.