I hate to admit

It's a sign

Chan

"Are you really going to do this?" Jisung asked me.

"I think it's time Ji, they need to know." I replied looking up at him.

We were sitting in my room, and it was just the two of us, Changbin and Felix were out wherever they were as usual. Not going to lie I never saw those two coming, as far as I knew Changbin was always straight, but I guess he just saw something in Felix.

Jisung surprisingly enough was all for it, since he had his own feelings to figure out yet for me.

Which I in no way fucking deserve to even be thought of. Jisung definitely deserved better, and I wish him, and Felix could have made it but nonetheless Changbin is happy, and Felix is happy.

Jisung is happy too in a way, he was given the credit he deserved for Hyunjin's song, and I let him produce and write more, I let him compose more music and songs because he deserves it. The world needs to know Jisung's talent and Changbin was on board with it as well.

Hyunjin was right after all, I don't need all the fame.

I don't need the fame anymore, I stepped off that train. Don't get me wrong I didn't step down from music but just took a step back.

We are still 3racha and have worked with numerous artists and made more music as a group, even released solo music.

But I guess you don't know...so much has happened recently.

Just when I thought things were looking up, shit once again has hit the fan.

After the launch party, the release of my own song, Hyunjin's song, and Hyunjin and I talking through our shit I thought everything was going to go back to normal.

But I was fucking wrong.

For a brief moment I was happy that I spent that little bit of time with Hyunjin, I was more than happy to have been sharing a sweet moment with him, sharing sweet kisses. We talked about a lot and we both came to a head, I knew however Hyunjin would never fully forgive me but somewhere he had a sliver of forgiveness for me, and I would take just that bit.

Hyunjin finally went home to his family...to Minho.

I was happy for him, honestly, he deserved someone like Minho.

Even though I still loved Hyunjin...fuck I still do but it made me realize that I had some feelings left for Jisung as well.

A few days after all that Minho had gotten a hold of me and said that the song collab was still on the table if we were up for it.

So, I talked to Changbin and Jisung about it, they were more than thrilled to still do it.

So, we did.

That's when shit hit the fan.

But not before I did a talk session on a radio show, sure the host had to ask the questions, but I didn't really have to answer them. There were some questions however I most definitely did not answer but instead I turned the tide around and subtly changed the topic.

At first people were praising us with the collab and giving danceracha much deserve love. whereas we as 3racha were giving as much credit to them as we possibly could. Let's be honest here they are known for their dance, but fuck can they sing and rap.

The high wore off though when fans started realizing who Hyunjin was, let's be real fans are not fucking dumb. They can find out stuff faster than a fucking detective could.

The things they were saying, the comments, the hate and just everything.

It was too much.

And I was being a coward.