I hate to admit

Welcomed

"You ready for this? I mean you put yourself in here for a reason Hyunjin." Soobin looked over at me.

"I don't think I'll ever be completely okay; I have too much shit going around in my mind, but I don't think I necessarily need to be here. Besides you know you can come visit me any time, besides I would love for you to stop by every now and then." I smiled.

"Oh you can count on it, I'm actually kind of proud of you. You have come a long way Hyunjin and now going out on your own and you have little Leebit here." "Yeah, I do but I don't think he's too little anymore." I chuckled.

Leebit jumped up into my arms, nuzzling his head against my chest and purring.

He definitely was not a kitten anymore.

"Well at least make sure you tell your only two friends that have come to visit you, don't be a loner out there." Soobin gave me a look.

"Don't worry I already told Felix and Jisung, they are actually going to meet me at my new place here in an hour. I think they are giving me a welcome home party for just the three of us." I laughed.

I told them I didn't need anything of the sort, but they insisted, and I wasn't going to argue with them.

Besides I think I need some time with them, it might actually be good for me.

"You know I appreciate you right. You've been my friend in this place, more than just my caretaker." I smiled.

I put Leebit down on the bed and walked over to Soobin, I pulled him into a hug, and I could feel his arms tightening around me and it felt good, it felt nice. There was no hidden motive or any sort of intimate feelings, it was a genuine hug.

"I better get going, don't forget you can come see me whenever." I pulled back, I gave him a kiss on the cheek and then put Leebit in his carrier and grabbed my things.

"Welcome home!" Felix shouted. "Leebit!" Felix came over to me and grabbed the cat carrier, opening it so he could jump out.

I watched as he scurried away.

"Looks like needs some time to adjust." Jisung chuckled. "But welcome home Hyunjin."

"Thanks, guys, for a second there I thought Felix was just excited to see the cat." I smirked.

Felix came up to me and jumped up, catching him I wrapped my arms around him, and he held on like a fucking monkey. I could feel a wetness seeping through my shirt, and I put Felix down, taking a step back I tilted his chin up, so he was looking at me.

"Oh Lix, what's wrong angel." I looked at him softly.

"I'm j-just glad you're back, you're out of that place. But I know you're not okay Jinnie." Felix sniffled.

"You were always one to know me so well Lix. And you're right I'm not okay and I don't think I ever will be but I'm here and back in the real world." I cupped his cheek.

Felix managed to smile at me and then he pulled away from me, he then walked off to where I don't know.

"What is he doing." I questioned.

"He's excited Hyunjin, he planned this all out ya know. He ordered all your favorite foods and desserts, he even got all your stuff from your old place and set up your room." Jisung spoke.

"From Minho's?" "Yeah, Minho wasn't home of course as usual, but Felix didn't like going back there but he did it for you." "What the fuck happened?" "A lot Hyunjin but right now is not the time to talk about that. Let's just enjoy this time together, Felix spent a lot of time doing this and without Chanbgin because he knew the loudmouth that he is would spill everything to Chan."

I just nodded my head and took a look around my place. I may have looked up places to rent and what not and scoped them out with the help of Soobin of course but when I found one, I gave Felix and Jisung the job of setting it up for me and looks like Felix took mostly that job on.

"Alright here we go!" Felix came in with food and set the stuff down on the table and went back to the kitchen and came back again, he took several trips, but he insisted he do it all on his own.

"Felix this is amazing!" I smiled.

"All for you Jinnie." Felix smiled back.

"I'm sorry your boyfriend can't be here with you Lix, but I appreciate everything you're doing for me." "It's okay Jinnie, you were my family first besides Binnie can live a day without me."

"It's true, it's very sickening to be honest." Jisung chuckled.

"Hey!" Lix pouted.

We all burst into laughter.

After a night full of laughing, eating, drinking, and the boys telling me things about what has happened over the past couple years, the good things anyways. They were trying very hard to keep all the bad things from me.

It was a good night; I haven't had this much fun in a long while.

It felt nice to be here with Felix, with Jisung and neither one of them is weird about anything. They became good friends after everything, and I was glad. Felix needed someone like Jisung despite their history.

"Well guys I have a deadline tomorrow, Felix need a ride?" Jisung asked standing up.

"Hmm, no I'm good. I'm going to stay with Hyunjin, it's been a while since I've slept with him." Felix chuckled.

"I don't even wanna know." Jisung shook his head.

I didn't bother explaining it to him, I just laughed, and Felix started cleaning up the place.

After Jisung left Leebit finally came out of hiding and rubbed himself up against my leg, I could hear him purring immensely. He must be really content now.

"I set up Leebit's area over there in the corner, and his litter box is over there too." Felix pointed to a corner on the other side of the room.

"Thanks, Lix. I'm going to go shower and then we can go to bed alright." I spoke.

"I'm taking some of your clothes by the way!" Felix yelled. 

Once I was showered and dressed, I walked out of the bathroom and Felix was all snuggled up in bed and Leebit was curled up beside him.

Felix did a good job of getting this place set up for me, I still had some unpacking to do but Felix mostly got the job done.

"You know you don't have nothing to hide from me right." I looked over at Felix.

"I'm not hiding anything Jinnie I just wanted you to have a good night. I'm sure from watching Chan's announcement and statement that you know not everything has been good these past years." Felix looked up at me.

I looked back at Felix and just sighed, pushing a strand of his blonde hair back behind his ear. "I'm not fragile Felix, I can take it ya know. I can't imagine what's happened, but I'm ready whenever you want to tell me." I spoke softly.

"Let me just enjoy tonight, besides it's been a while since I've cuddled up to you. I've missed you Jinnie and I'm sorry I wasn't there for you when you really needed me." Felix kissed me on the cheek.

"I love you Lix." I whispered.

Felix was already snoring; he falls asleep fast anytime he's with me.

I could hear the thunder in the distance, and the wind was picking up.

It never fucking fails.