I hate to admit

Trying

Minho

"Hey, you sound great baby." I smiled. 

"You weren't supposed hear it yet!" The long-haired boy shouted at me.

"Don't worry it sounded amazing, someday you'll get to perform it and I'll be the first one there cheering you on."

I had walked in on him singing a song, and frankly it sounded amazing. His voice was beautiful. I can't picture his face; I can't see it.

Something about it sounded familiar but I have no idea.

I had grabbed him by the waist and pulled him into me, kissing him all over, he was smiling and giggling, and it was the most beautiful thing.

I was right there; I was smiling like an idiot, and I was so freaking happy.

"Minho!" I heard a deep voice call my name.

I was snapped out of my daydream.

"Oh Felix!" I smiled.

"You, okay? You look a little off." Felix spoke.

Felix came over and opened the curtains, I was ready to shield my eyes from the brightness but there was no need.

The sky was a pinkish color, the night sky was covered in clouds. From when I first woke the weather was treacherous outside but now it was less treacherous.

Was still raining and only a bit of thunder in the distance.

"Is it always like this?" I nodded towards the window.

"Sadly, we barely get much sun which is kind of odd not going to lie." Felix chuckled sitting down next to me.

"I remember...rainy days." I looked off into the distance.

"What's wrong Min?" Felix asked worriedly. "I...I don't know just before you came, I had a weird dream of sorts. I saw someone...but I couldn't see their face, but he had long blonde hair."

Felix looked at me the quickly looked away, it was if he knew who I was talking about but didn't want to mention anything.

"You know who I'm talking about." I spoke sternly.

"I do." Felix replied.

As much as I would like to know who that person was in my so-called dream, I knew Felix didn't want to talk about it.

Chan had asked me if I remembered anyone else other than him and Felix, I know Chan was in a group with two other guys but couldn't quite picture them. The way it seems though this person was someone I knew...know personally.

"I'm sorry Minho, I don't want to trigger anything, and I don't know how well your memory is doing or whatever. I don't want to upset you or cause you discomfort." Felix spoke.

"I have a right to know, don't I?" I replied.

"Yes. Tomorrow you'll meet someone Min, it'll just be the two of you." Felix looked at me.

From my memory or dream it seemed as if we were close...intimate almost.

I have no idea what will happen when I meet this person tomorrow and it seems like the one, I'm meeting is the one from my dream.

"He's part of our family Minho, I know you don't know but the three of us have been together for years. You both were like my parents almost; you took care of me and protected me. I won't go into detail, but things were left bad between the two of you just like it was with us." Felix explained.

"I was on my way back to you Lix, to make things right. I'm so sorry angel, I don't know what the fuck was wrong with me. I know I wasn't there for you; I know you weren't alone though." I lowered my head feeling the tears escape.

Felix flung himself on me wrapping his arms around my neck hugging me, as much as it hurt, I wasn't going to say anything. I could handle the pain I was in because I knew Felix made up for it, God he's so precious.

"I wasn't the one who really needed you Min, and I know you don't remember and maybe it's a good thing but that person who needed you most was in pain, he hurt because you left him." Felix sniffled himself.

"You know there may be a chance I don't remember him or anything from before, right? I can't make promises." "But you can try, find yourself again and make new memories. Whatever happens, I'm right there by your side."

Bless your soul Felix, I can't believe I ever fucking hurt you.