I hate to admit

Find your heart

Minho

Why can't I just pull Hyunjin into my arms and hold him tight and never let him go?

The first minute I saw him I should have done just that. I should have held him, kissed him, loved him, told him everything was going to be okay.

He looked so damn good when I saw him, he died his hair back to black. The first time I ever saw him he had long black hair, longer than it was now. We have been through so much together and I'm going to let that one kiss get between us.

I'm so fucking stupid.

Hyunjin was right, he poured his heart out to me, and I basically laughed in his face. But I meant what I said.

Hyunjin and Chan have history, no matter how toxic it may have been they also had some good in their relationship. It's clear as day Chan still loves Hyunjin no matter how much of an ass he is at showing it these past couple of weeks. Hyunjin on the other hand I can't quite figure out but that's why I told him to go and find out.

I gave him a free pass.

I guess I just have to wait and see what he does with it.

I walked back inside before it started to down pour again, this time I know I wasn't going after Hyunjin. This time I know what I'm doing.

"Trouble in paradise?" Chan snickered.

"Fuck you." I growled.

I was on my way out when Chan stopped me.

"You hate me so much so why? I hate to eavesdrop, but I overheard everything." Chan spoke up.

"Of course you did. I gave Hyunjin a free pass Chan, I gave him a chance to talk to you. I gave him a chance to figure out his feelings, there's some part of him that has a silver of feeling for you." I glared at him. " I admire you; you know that. You love Hyunjin so fucking much and it hurts to see that, I do love Hyunjin but for the longest time I put those feelings away. I was the biggest douchebag there was, I hurt him in so many ways I lost count. I never knew he was in an institution, I lost track of him after the night I hurt him. I was in a blind rage that night and I left. I got lost in my fame, but Changbin and Jisung kind of got me out of my head. They helped me along the way even though I was still an asshole."

A grade A asshole is what he is.

Hyunjin always said that Chan pulls people in, people fall for his charm.

I wasn't one of them people, but I'll be honest, it's clear as day that he loves Hyunjin.

"Until you two figure this out the song collab is off the table." I spoke before I turned around and left.

Jisung

After Hyunjin stormed out I left, I could only assume he would go back to my place. After talking to Minho, I doubt he would go back to their place and really, he has nowhere else to go.

When I got back to the apartment, I got a call from Minho.

I stayed in my car until I was done talking to him, Minho sounded tired and exhausted.

Minho had told me what he talked to Hyunjin about, I was honestly shocked at what he told me but in all honesty I kind of get it.

Minho loves Hyunjin with his whole being and I wish I would have had that feeling with Felix, it was sweet and adorable as fuck.

It was also kind of sad.

I don't know the whole story behind Chan and Hyunjin's relationship, but I know it was toxic as hell aside from that they had the normal relationship in the beginning, but Chan let the fame get to his head.

Minho knew the song was Hyunjin's.

That's why he's doing what he's doing.

He's letting Hyunjin figure out himself, he's letting him figure out his feelings.

Minho told me to look after Hyunjin, he also told me however not to tell him anything about Hyunjin's whereabouts or doings.

I honestly wonder if they can get through this, I wonder if Hyunjin decides to go after Chan and figure their relationship out if Hyunjin and Minho can go back to how they were.

After the call I went up to my apartment and I was right, Hyunjin was on the couch. He had taken off his outfit from earlier and changed into comfy clothes, his makeup was taken off too and he had his hair tied halfway up.

Ain't gonna lie I can see why Chan and Minho are attracted to him.

"Hey there, did you eat?" I asked sitting down next to him.

Hyunjin just shook his head.

Jus then a bright flash of lighting streaked the sky and followed by a loud bang, Hyunjin flinched at the sound.

"Does Minho not love me anymore?" Hyunjin spoke.

It sounded like a question for himself, but I answered him anyways.

"Oh Hyunjin, you have no idea how much he loves you. To be honest it's kind of sickening, you Felix, and Minho are a family, and nothing can break that. Minho loves you Hyunjin and that's why he's doing this. I overheard a bit of your conversation with Minho." I explained.

"Y-you did?" Hyunjin sniffled.

"Yes, and I'm sorry for how things turned out. You'll just have to take one day at a time Hyunjin, see where your heart lies. Do as Minho said, take the opportunity. I know you love Minho and I know it overpowers your feelings for Chan." "Thanks, Jisung, you've been a good friend and I'm honestly kind of sorry for you not ending up with Felix. You two would have been good together." "Don't worry about it besides I see something going on between Felix and Changbin interestingly enough." I chuckled.

Hyunjin laughed and it was a sweet sound, I felt like the last few days had been nothing but dark and depressing even though it still is in some ways.

Even the weather goes with the mood.

"You can stay here for as long as you'd like Hyunjin. My home is your home." Jisung smiled.