I hate to admit

shit has hit the fan

Minho

I can't fucking believe Chan did that, despite it being dark there was just enough light but when they turned on bloody fucking hell.

Chan was kissing Hyunjin my boyfriend of all things. The worst part is Hyunjin didn't even pull away or push him away.

I hope to God Hyunjin was too shocked by the whole thing and he wasn't in his right mind when he was frozen in place. I know Hyunjin didn't mean for this to happen and I'm pretty sure he had no idea of this part, Chan sure was doing Chan things.

It hurt so fucking much to see Hyunjin and Chan like that, yet there was nothing I could have done.

When Chan let go and Hyunjin looked out towards me I couldn't even describe what his expression was but I'm sure mine was clear as day.

I watched Hyunjin storm out, and I stood up so fast and walked over to Chan and without even thinking of the consequences I punched Chan.

Then I punched him again.

"You're a real piece of work you know that Chan. I know this wasn't part of the scene, but it was your part, it's all your doing. How could you fucking do that to him?" I was seething at this point.

"You know he didn't even push me away, now please explain that." Chan was smirking. I watched him take his thumb and wipe the blood away from his lips.

I punched him twice and I know for a fact he will have a black eye and a busted lip.

"Don't try and put the blame on him, you know what I hope on your way home you get hit by a fucking car." And I stormed off myself.

I was looking around for Felix, but he was nowhere to be found, Changbin came over to help Chan and Jisung ran out somewhere.

It was a dick move of me to not go after Hyunjin right away, but I wanted to give Chan a piece of my mind but at the same time I don't think I could face Hyunjin.

When I stepped outside it was a sheer downpour, the wind was picking up and lightning streaked the sky, the thunder was just overhead too. I can only imagine what Hyunjin is going through right now.

I knew Hyunjin would be okay or at least I hoped he would be, but I had to go find Felix and I just hope to God he was at home.

"Felix!" I yelled as I stormed through the front door.

"Felix! Please tell me you're home." I ran up the stairs.

The house was eerily quiet but when I saw the light coming from under Hyunjin's door it means he was home. Felix always went to Hyunjin when he was down or scared and other times, he locked himself up.

I knocked on the door.

"Felix, angel please open the door. Let's talk, okay?" I spoke as softly as I could.

"H-hyunjin is o-out there all alone, he's probably scared Minho. You didn't even go after him." Felix sobbed through the door.

"I know Lix, I just couldn't...not right now anyways." I replied. "I'll go find him okay, I just need to know you're okay." "I'm fine! Please go away." Felix yelled.

I went back to my room and tried to call Hyunjin there was no answer, fuck I don't even know if he has his phone on him. He probably ran out without any of his belongings.

I don't even know where to begin to look for him, he probably thinks I was never coming for him. He pry thinks I abandoned him.

This fucking sucks.

"I'm so sorry Hyunjin." I mumbled to myself.

I'm not dumb, Chan was Hyunjin's first love, and you can't just completely ignore that. There was always going to be some sort of feelings still lingering there, and there were times when Hyunjin had not so subtly mentioned.

Things couldn't possibly get any fucking worse.

Chan

Fucking Christ.

Kissing Hyunjin felt amazing.

There were so many memories, so many emotions flooding back and I knew there was going to be consequences.

His lips were soft and just like I remembered them, and he tasted sweet. He didn't even push me away; I'm actually surprised he let me kiss him.

But boy when Minho punched me it almost felt exhilarating in some way, yeah, I know I'm a pyscho.

After everyone walked off Changbin came over to me and not only to give me shit and yell at me but like the friend that he was came to check up on me.

"That's a wrap guys! Everyone was great, I'll get to editing the video right away and let you see the final product before we release it." The director spoke.

The director walked off and now it was just me and Changbin.

"What the fuck was all that Chan?" Changbin spat.

"It was just part of the scene Bin now calm the fuck down." I replied. "Kissing someone else's boyfriend was not part of the scene Chan. You knew what you were doing up there it was so obvious, I always knew you were a tool but come on. You couldn't have Jisung so you had to try and go for Hyunjin?" "I wasn't going for anyone Bin; I literally improvised and added it in."

Changbin sighed and rolled his eyes, "Right now let's go home and I'll deal with you later."

I followed Changbin out to the car and we drove off.

When we arrived home it was dark and quiet except for the storm raging outside.

Jisung wasn't home.

Changbin said he was going to deal with me, but I guess he wasn't going to right at the moment. I watched him stalk off towards his room and now it was just me.

I went down to the studio and shut the door behind me.

I had certain moods where I liked to lock myself up in my studio, I also had certain moods where I would go and get drunk or high and eventually fall into bed with someone.

I had no idea what my mood was right now, but I knew it was close to wanting to go out and getting drunk but not tonight.

Music was calling my name and I started to write.

Ideas were coming to me left and right and then I sat down at the piano.

When I started playing there was a specific song that came to mind, something that I never told Hyunjin about because it was his.

It was his song, one he thought I never heard him sing when he thought no one was around, one he thought I'd never find written down in his notebook.

It was something beautiful, something sad.

It was something that fit our relationship, the words and the emotions described us.

It was something that the world needed to hear.