I hate to admit

A new me or old me?

The night before the release of new music video

"Hyunjin! You've been getting good reviews man." Jisung yelled from the other room.

I was still staying with Jisung I mean it's only been two days I think, I have yet to actually go on and see how my song was doing. I was scared to look at the comments and reviews.

I made my way out to the living room and Jisung was on the couch, I can hear my song playing and Jisung was all smiles.

"There are a few hateful comments but the good outweigh the bad Hyunjin. Come sit and look." Jisung patted the seat next to him.

I went and sat down next to him, and Jisung handed me his laptop.

I scrolled through the comments under the video and there were hateful comments.

Funny how I chose to keep the bad ones in mind rather than the good ones. You would think I would be happy but something like this I should be celebrating with Minho and Felix.

They would be proud of me.

"Felix keeps texting me every 10 minutes ya know, always asking how you're doing." Jisung spoke. "And I always tell him you're fine even though we both know that's a lie."

"Well, Jisung I appreciate you keeping the peace, Felix doesn't need to know that I'm not 100%." I looked back at the comments, and one caught my eye.

Someone made a comment "I think I do." 

I guess someone thinks they know me.

"You realize someone might recognize your voice, I mean Chan should know and not to mention Minho or Felix." Jisung snapped me out of my thoughts.

"I know, maybe they haven't heard it yet." I shrugged.

I couldn't sleep all night; I kept re-reading the comments and reviews. I listened to my song at least a dozen times, I still couldn't help but think about the hate.

Sure, my song is just another love heartbreak song, but I put myself out there, I literally let the world know my fucking feelings.

There's nothing like being called a fag or another heartbroken bastard, for me it's hard to look past those things. I know artists go through it all the time, you have your fans, and you have your anti-fans. People will either love you or hate you.

A lot were praising Jisung however, Chan definitely did not give him enough credit.

Even though I did not sleep, I didn't even know what time it was but looking outside it was just starting to turn light out. And then I heard Jisung yell.

"You've got to be fucking kidding me!"

I got up from the couch and Jisung made his way out of his bedroom.

"Ugh why are you yelling." I rubbed my temples. I could feel a headache coming on.

"That fucking bastard Chan. I wake up to my phone blowing up." Jisung handed me his phone.

I looked through his phone, there was nothing but notifications from every music source available. Chan uploaded their new music video.

"He didn't even bother to wait, like we always were together when we did these things and already a launch party for the video." Jisung grumbled.

"It's Chan, he wants all the credit, all the fame." I replied.

I handed Jisung back his phone, I didn't even want to watch the damn thing.

"Looks like I have a party to go to. Hyunjin now's the time to get over your sorry ass and come with me." Jisung looked at me.

"Uh no." "Uh yes, now get dressed we are going shopping."

Great.

Now I was being dragged out of the apartment to go shopping... I can only guess he's taking me to get an outfit.

"I'm not wearing this." I growled looking in the mirror.

Jisung took me to one of his friend's places, I guess he goes to him for everything.

Clothes, accessories, shoes, makeup, hair the works. He must be good because Jisung always looks on point.

"He's a good close friend, he usually helps Changbin and Chan too but I'm his regular. Now don't hate the clothes Hyunjin you look fucking amazing. Doesn't he Innie?" Jisung looked back at his friend who was walking back up with more outfits.

"Fuck I'm pretty sure he would look good in anything; I mean look at him." "I'm Jeongin by the way, since this ass hat didn't introduce me.

"Oh well nice to meet you Jeongin. And it's nothing against you I just don't think I need to look this flashy I guess." I shrugged my shoulders.

"Of course you do. If I know anything it's that Minho will probably drag him and Felix to the party and Chan will be there, let's show him who's the real star here." Jisung smiled.

"A hot star you are." Jeongin smirked. "Now let's change your hair. And Jisung go pick out your own outfit."

My hair?

I looked at Jeongin in confusion.

"You look like a hot prince with your long blonde hair, now let's make you look like an artist." Jeongin spoke as he led me behind a curtain that led to a room.

This place was crazy, it's not just a clothing store, but it has a salon and much more.

Hell, I even saw some of 3racha's clothes on display from some of their previous music videos and stage performances.

"Damn it Jeongin, what did you do to him." Jisung was standing in the doorway, I saw him in the mirror.

"What he looks good." Jeongin smiled.

Jeongin was standing behind me, I was looking at myself in the mirror. I never thought I'd see myself like this again.

"Yeah, well I'm pretty sure his boyfriend would say otherwise." Jisung spoke.

"Ah what...he has a boyfriend." Jeognin frowned sounding defeated.

Jisung patted his friend on the shoulder and then looked back at me in the mirror.

"It's good Ji, it reminds me of when I was younger actually, but it also holds some not so good memories..." My voice trailed off.

Jisung frowned.

I stood up and turned around. I pulled Jisung into a hug and then looked over at Jeognin. I pulled away and just smiled.

"Thank you both." I smiled.