I hate to admit

You're my high

I think I was okay with not going any further than just kissing last night, we had a good...first date just a casual movie night and cuddling.

Leebit may have interrupted us, but I was alright with it, we kissed, and it was amazing more like had a make out session.

We went to bed together...in the same bed and just slept with a bit of cuddling and it was nice, the sound of the rain was soothing, but it had awoken me or more the rumbling of the thunder.

Ever since Minho and I have been 'seeing' each other I haven't felt anxious or depressed and no thoughts of harming myself, I'd say that's a win in my book.

And to be honest I don't think Minho is pretending in any way.

I think I deserve at least one win.

I had sat up in bed and I got up, I heard scratching on the door so I could only assume it was Leebit. He's in a new place so he might be a bit anxious or maybe he's just fucking hungry, I walked over to the door and opened it.

Leebit rubbed up against the door frame and meowed softly, I leaned down and scratched under his chin like he liked and then I followed him out the door.

Minho must be a heavy sleeper because he didn't even make a move to anything.

Once downstairs the only light coming from the overhead in the kitchen above the stove and it was dim but also the lightning coming from outside.

Looks like the storm is close.

I had fed and watered Leebit then I went to the living room and just sat down on the couch, I wasn't bothered to turn on any light because I don't know it seemed... relaxing.

"Hey you." Minho spoke from behind me.

"I thought I was safe; you were sleeping pretty heavily." I chuckled.

"Well, I had no idea you left the bed but when I turned over and felt it was empty then I woke up." "Hmm sorry the thunder woke me and then Leebit got hungry." "No worries kitten, just missed you."

Kitten?

Don't mind the name at all.

"What don't like it?" Minho chuckled.

Minho walked around to me, and he sat down next to me pulling me into his lap.

"On the contrary, you used to call me baby though." I smirked.

"Well considering Chan likes to call you that I figured I needed something else, so kitten suited you I think." Minho pulled me in for a kiss.

"Mhmm I'll take it." I whispered into the kiss.

I knew we wouldn't' get far so I made the move to pull away and I swore Minho looked disappointed.

"Come on, we still have a while so let's just take our time." I spoke.

"I know, just...I don't know I feel like I'm addicted to you right now. When I came over and bought the painting, I guess something just clicked inside of me, it's not a memory or anything but I began to feel something. Now that we're here I don't want to stop, I don't want to give you up." Minho whispered.

"Are you trying to say I'm a drug?" I chuckled.

"You're my drug." Minho smashed his lips onto mine once more.

Minho had picked me up and then took me upstairs, I had my legs wrapped around his waist and my arms around his neck.

Our lips were moving in sync, and we haven't even parted yet, not even to breathe.

Once we got to his room he flung me on the bed, crawling over top of me...hovering over me and finally breaking the kiss he took all of me in.

"Minho..." I breathed.

"Hyunjin, I... want you." Minho spoke softly. "I'm sorry it took me so long; this is our new start."

"I know...and I want you." I replied.