I hate to admit

Remember

I don't know how long I was sitting here holding Minho's hand but all of a sudden, I felt something wrap around me. I looked over my shoulder and saw Jisung, he had put his jacket around me.

"So, it was Minho, we were giving you some time just in case it was him. What did the doctor say?" Jisung placed his hand on my shoulder.

I couldn't hold it in anymore, I burst into tears.

"Oh Hyunjin." Jisung spoke softly.

Jisung placed a kiss on my head and wrapped his arms around me.

He held me for a good long while as I sat there and cried my eyes out finally, I was surprised myself that I didn't cry at first.

Now it won't stop, it's like my tears are trying to keep up with the rain outside.

"W-where's Lix?" I managed to say.

"Changbin is trying to keep him calm, but I'm sure if he came in here and not only saw Minho but you, he would break down Jinnie." Jisung spoke.

"Will you tell him that Minho is going to be fine, he doesn't need to know the whole details right now." I replied.

I felt Jisung's arms leave me, and I knew he was no longer behind me, I was alone again.

I looked over at Minho, he looked peaceful despite everything.

"Hey, Jisung told Felix what you said. Felix tried to come in and see him, he also wanted to be with you, but Changbin talked him out of it and took him home to rest. He'll be in though in the morning." Chan walked over to the other side of Minho's bed.

"I just didn't want Felix to feel more overwhelmed than he has to, and he's been through enough." I spoke looking over at Chan.

"What did the doctor say?" "They said he was lucky." I got up dropping Minho's hand.

I wanted to leave and walk out, go to the roof top and yell until my lungs gave out. I wanted to scream until I didn't have a voice anymore.

Before I knew it Chan was there engulfing me in a hug, I could feel the warmth radiating off of him and it felt nice, comfortable.

"He'll be okay Jinnie, remember when I said he was strong because he is." Chan rubbed his hand up and down my back.

I placed my Chin over Chan's shoulder and looked over at Minho.

I keep hoping he will open his eyes but also hoping not this minute, the last thing I wanted him to see when he first came to was me and Chan hugging.

"H-he might not know who I am when he wakes up." I closed my eyes tight and let the tears continue to fall.

"He'd be crazy not to know who you are Jinnie, but if that's the case we will do everything in our power to make sure he remembers okay. You two are it ya know, he's your person Hyunjin and you're his." Chan spoke softly.

God everything is so weird now.

I never imagined us being here like this, Chan being who he is or was and now it's like we were never hateful towards each other.

I think after his statement and him being with Jisung he just became a completely different person. Bless Jisung's soul as well, he's become a great friend of mine and hasn't shown any jealousy towards me or his own boyfriend. 

Chan has been great; everyone has been, and I don't know what I'd do without him or Jisung or Felix.

Most of all Felix.

"I'll be okay if he doesn't remember me, but he has to remember Felix." I sniffled.

He has to remember Felix.