I hate to admit

Please...please

Ugh I can't even enjoy my free time; the weather has been downright fucking horrendous.

Leebit and I were curled up together on the couch, I had some anime show going on in the background but frankly I couldn't concentrate on it.

Somewhere in the back of my mind I couldn't help but shake of this awful feeling, there was an awful feeling in my gut.

I picked up my phone and scrolled through my Insta, things have been quiet lately. With 3racha on an indefinite hiatus there hasn't been much going on in the music industry, I mean hell they basically carried the industry.

I haven't even heard of any groups or artists that have worked with Minho or anything, I can only assume Danceracha isn't anything right now. I have been off the grid for a few years and Felix has told me as much that things are quiet, and Minho basically fell off the face of the earth.

My phone suddenly started ringing and I jumped as it scared me snapping me back out of my thoughts.

I could hear nothing but sniffling, crying, sobbing and as the caller ID read it was Felix on the other end but as he was trying to talk, he was making no sense. I was trying to talk to him and calm him down, but it was no use.

In the background I could hear other voices, one was definitely Changbin who was trying to calm his boyfriend down and I think I heard Jisung too.

I was however no prepared for whose voice I heard over the phone.

Chan.

"Hyunjin, um it's me Chan. Felix is having a hard time and it's taking both Bin and Jisung to calm him down. I'm sure I'm the last person you want to talk to but it's important. It's about Minho...if you don't mind can we talk in person?"

Minho?

What's wrong, what happened?

I couldn't stop thinking about what Chan said and if he wants to talk in person then it must be bad, must be important especially the way Felix was acting.

Chan was right he was the last person I didn't want talk to.

I didn't want him to know where I was living but I couldn't help but tell him, he has something to do with the awful feeling not Chan himself but Minho.

"Damn fucking rain." Chan cursed as he stood outside my door.

"Fuck sorry, come in." I moved so Chan could come inside.

I went to grab a towel and an extra shirt; Chan was drenched from the rain, and he had only stood out there a few seconds.

I walked back into the living room and through the towel at him and then the shirt.

"Don't say I never did anything nice." I spoke.

Leebit walked into the living room and walked up to Chan, he looked up at him and hissed.

I couldn't help but laugh.

"Looks like he doesn't like you." I chuckled.

After Chan dried off a bit and sat the towel down, he looked at the cat and just glared at it.

"I guess I deserve that." Chan smirked.

Chan then took his shirt off and set it down.

Always feeling comfortable I see.

"Really Chan." I looked at him, but I also couldn't help but notice his very toned body.

He always kept up his figure, always worked out.

"Please put your shirt on. Tell me why you're here Chan." I spat.

"Oh Jinnie, I know I'm hot but no need to stare." Chan smiled.

I rolled my eyes and went to sit on the couch, Leebit usually would jump up on my lap, but he wasn't too thrilled with the company right now.

Chan put his shirt on and came over and sat next to me.

"I'm sorry it has to be this way; I wish we could have met on better terms. I know things have been shitty lately. I wasn't there when you needed me and Jisung never told me what happened to you. I'm not going to pry either because what I'm about to say is by far more important." Chan spoke.

"Just tell me Chan, why was Felix so upset." I asked.

"I'm sorry Jinnie."

I sat there for a few minutes in silence, I had to wrap my head around what Chan had just said. Ever since I moved into my new place, I couldn't help but have this bad feeling, I knew something was off and I didn't like it.

Now I was trying to figure out what Chan was trying to say.

"Channie..." My voice trembled.

Chan looked at me, his face said it all. He had no idea what the outcome was, and Felix wanted to contact me before they went to go to the hospital where the people were taken from the accident.

Chan had said that he would come to me and talk to me and had told Changbin and Jisung to take Felix to the hospital and we would follow after.

"Hey, it's okay Jinnie, we will go and see okay. We can only hope for the best." Chan spoke softly.

"But there was a fatality-" "Shhh Hyunjin." Chan pulled me into a hug and held me for a bit.

I couldn't help but melt into him, I didn't hold back my tears either. I know Minho abandoned me and I'm sure he had his reasons but still he was my Minho.

"Let's go okay, let's go see if Minho is alright." Chan rubbed his hand up and down my back trying to comfort me.

I hated to admit it, but Chan was actually being a comfort right now and it was something I needed.

We arrived at the hospital and the rain was coming down in sheets, it was a longer drive than need be, but we made it, nonetheless.

I was too out of it to talk or do anything, so Chan did all the talking.

"Where are the people brought here from the accident! There's a friend of ours he was in the multiple car accident from the storm." Chan raised his voice to make it seem urgent.

"I'm sorry but we are still trying to reach families and others, there are some that are John does and we don't know any information." The nurse at the desk spoke.

"We have a friend! Just take us to where they brought everyone from the accident, and we can see for ourselves." Chan was getting angry.

"Chan calm down, I'm sure there are plenty of people trying to find their loved ones." I spoke placing my hand on his shoulder to try and calm him down. "No Hyunjin, this is Minho we are talking about." Chan shouted.

Never thought I would hear Chan take an interest in Minho, ever care about him.

Chan turned around from the desk and looked at me, he took my hand in his and gave it a squeeze. "I'm sorry Jinnie, I just want you to see him."

"Um excuse me but you're Cb97 from 3racha!" A girl spoke.

Chan turned around to face a younger girl.

"Yes, I am but I'm sorry now is not a good time." Chan replied. "Oh, uh sorry, I'm just a big fan even after everything that happened. I couldn't help but overhear, but most of the people from the accident are on the second floor ICU. I had family in that accident, I can take you there." The girl spoke.

"Could you please? I'll make sure you get an autograph from my friend here." I spoke.

"Of course! You're H-hyunjin the boy from the music video! I love your dancing, and by the way you were way too good for him anyways." The girl side eyed Chan who held back a laugh.

"Hmm I think so too." I chuckled.

The girl took my hand and led me down the corridor to an elevator, Chan was following quickly behind.

Please Minho, be there...I'm coming.