I hate to admit

The concert: Backstage

With the concert done now comes the fun part.

"The last stage was amazing! Hearing their solo songs, I especially liked J.one's. Bang Chan's though...definitely was good. Seems like it was for someone, or he wrote it after meeting a special someone." Felix went on and on about the concert.

Yeah, his song was about someone.

But not me.

"Alright Lix you ready?" Minho spoke up. Right now, we go backstage to meet the famous 3racha.

"Let's go!" Felix exclaimed.

We weren't going to wait until every person left the venue because that would take forever, Minho went up to one of the security guards and showed them our tickets and our backstage passes. We were then told to follow them and on our way we went.

I'd saying being nervous is an understatement right now. I just want to fucking hide and never appear again.

I keep telling myself this is all for Felix which it is, but I never expected to be faced with him again. What were the chances?

"Why don't we let Felix be in front so he can be the first one in." I suggested. Felix giggled in excitement and we both pushed him to the front just behind the guard.

"That was smart Hyunjin." Minho nudged me. "This is all for Felix so why not let him see his idols first." I shrugged my shoulders. "You're right. I also know something has been bothering you since the start of the concert. You going to share?" "Not now, let Felix enjoy this otherwise this whole damn thing will be ruined by me."

Minho went silent but we were soon just in front of the door that would lead us to the boys, the guard went in and assumed to let them know we were here.

Just then we were motioned to head inside, while I was just behind Felix it was evident, he was nervous and excited at the same time but also a little shy.

The three of us stood in front of the three of them and I can't really read the room right now. Minho was trying to hold back a smile and a smirk whereas Felix was standing in shock like he was going to pass out from seeing his idols up close. I however immediately made contact with him, and it was a mistake.

The short one was eyeing us carefully like he was surprised or something and the chubby cheeked one was all smiles, and it was comforting. Chan looked as if his head was about to explode, and his eyes were laced with shock and something else.

We both never thought we would see each other again but here we are and to top it off what came out of Minho's mouth next took the cake.

"The last surprise Felix, this is the group we are going to be working for." 

"Oh, oh, oh! That's why you all looked familiar! We were sent your pictures and videos of your dancing and what not." The short one replied.

"You're right! I thought the cute freckled one looked familiar!" The chubby cheeked one said.

So, this is what he was hiding. Lee fucking Minho you're dead.

After standing and eyeing each other for a good couple minutes we went to sit down and started introducing ourselves.

I only answered who I was and then I stayed silent, Felix was doing a lot of the talking and Minho was observing. The chubby cheeked one who was Han Jisung only told us to call him Jisung he was the talkative one of the group and him and Felix were getting along quite well.

Minho and the short one who goes by Changbin were engaging in conversation, me on the other hand smiled and nodded. Chan was quiet and I could tell he was trying to keep it cool, so he knew we'd be meeting again. Changbin said as much after seeing our photos.

"You're quite Hyunjin." Felix whispered in my ear. "Oh, uh yeah sorry Lix, but this is your time to shine!" I replied with a smile. "This is for all of us Jinnie, we get to work with one of the best groups in Seoul and mostly in the world."

"Your friend is smart." Chan spoke up. "He knows good talent; we've also seen all your guys' work and I have to admit you are all good."

"Thank you and it's an honor to be working with you all, I was actually surprised to have gotten an email regarding this matter and being chosen to work on your new album." Minho started to explain. "I'd say it's an honor to be working with you all to be honest." Chan replied.

Chan actually sounded sincere and that was rare, something I never experienced. Not only am I sitting in front of him now, but we will be working alongside each other for who knows how fucking long.

"Your hair color looks nice one you." Chan looked at me. "Oh uh..." I tried to speak but was cut off. "Isn't it, he can pull anything off." Minho said. "Also wearing contacts? Your photos showed blue." Chan said.

"You're taking to him as if you know him." Changbin piped up.

The room went silent for a minute, but it felt like an eternity. How do you tell someone that yeah, we know each other and almost ruined my dancing career. How do you tell someone that the person sitting next to you is a cheating lying bastard but plays the good guy to everyone else. How do you tell someone that their friend who they think they know let fame get the best of him, wanted nothing but to be seen by everyone. How do you tell someone that the person that you're going to be working with for the next few days or weeks even was left emotionally and physically scarred by the one you call your friend or brother.

There's so much more to this story.

"We do." I looked up at Chan.

I was trying so hard to fight back the tears that want to escape, Felix was genuinely worried about me now and Minho was anxious almost as if he knew something. He looked equally guilty.

"How so?" Changbin asked.

"In high school we knew each other." Chan piped up. "Is that it Chan?" I looked at him.

"Don't tell me you two dated?" Jisung asked curiously.

I simply nodded my head. "Oh, I guess that explains some of the tension. Did you not know he was famous?" "I did but I never knew he was this famous. I knew nothing of his involvement with 3racha. I only knew him went he was starting out." I explained.

"I can't believe you dated CB97!" Felix shouted while covering his mouth with his hands.

"It wasn't all what you think it was Lix." I stood up. I looked at Changbin and Jiusng, "It was nice meeting you both and I look forward to working with you. But if you'll excuse me, I'll leave first."

I was out of the room faster than I thought. I couldn't take it anymore and I'm surprised I lasted that long to be honest.