I hate to admit

Release

Chan

Well still no word from Jisung and Changbin hasn't said one word to me since we've been back home.

The director of our music video had called me with the news of our video being done with editing and what not. He had mentioned my little spin on my solo scene was a nice touch, now as I opened my email, and the video was there waiting.

We were meant to all be here and watch the video, but I want this video out now for the world to see, for our fans to see. I had contacted our manager, and he gave me the free reign to upload the video and so I did.

I however do have one fear.

My scene with Hyunjin and him being our backup dancer, although his hair has changed color, he himself hasn't changed much. I'm afraid my fans will notice him and remember who he was, they were not very happy with him being my boyfriend back then as they saw him as the bad guy.

I just hope they will not realize who he is and see him for his actual talent as a dancer.

As I was sitting here at the kitchen counter with my laptop and highly sweetened coffee, my finger was hovering over the send button. The button that will send our new music video through to hundreds of people, our video will be live.

However, one of my friends in the music industries has sent me a link to a new song that was recently uploaded and apparently Jisung's name is on it as a producer.

Looks like he has been busy the past two days, and it's been two days since I last saw Hyunjin. No one has even seen him either, Minho has been constantly bothering me and every time he calls, I can hear the sheer hate in his voice for me.

I am indeed the villain here.

I downed my coffee and opened the link.

Produced by J.one himself however the singer remains anonymous.

One word.

Damn.

The song was beautiful and painful, there was obvious pain in his voice but at the same time a mix of sadness and happiness. There were too many lyrics that seemed familiar.

"Great voice." I heard Changbin come up behind me.

"New artist, Jisung produced it." I replied.

"Well, he certainly has an eye, we should give him more credit when it comes to writing and producing. You don't need all the credit." Changbin snickered.

"I suppose so, he is good." I replied. "Going to give me the talk yet?"

"I'm not going to lecture you Chan, I know you know that you were in the wrong. Now you just have to take responsibility for it." Changbin spoke. "You're right but I'm not going to apologize for what I did. I added a spin on the video that was it, being that it was Hyunjin was a bonus. I know I was a dick and that it was a dick move, but I guess in all honesty I wanted to know what it felt like to kiss him again." I explained. "You know I love you right, but you are so far up your own ass sometimes. We are family but there are times when I get tired of dealing with your shit."

He's not wrong.

Changbin is always picking up the pieces whereas Jisung was always there in my corner, always trying to comfort me.

I guess I don't know how to stop.

"I got our video back and already uploaded it. Our manager already knows and is planning a release party as we speak." I looked over at Changbin.

"You could have at least told us about it, I'm sure Jisung would have wanted to watch it before hand." "Well, Jisung has been silent since the other night. It was good, the director did an amazing job and we looked equally as amazing. Those boys really know their stuff, the choreo was lit." "Yeah, well since your little stunt we might not even get the song collab now, I think it would have been a great opportunity for both our groups."

It would have been yes; I would have loved to hear their voices mixed with ours.

"Well, the music video is up and now it's just a matter of time. I myself have a new song however and plan to perform it live." I spoke.

"Seriously? Just have to make it about you don't you." Changbin spat.

"No, I'm not, I just had shit on my mind that I needed to put into words. I'm sorry I want to make music Bin." "Don't apologize Chan, as much as I hate it, you're an amazing artist."

I closed my laptop and took my mug over to the sink, "Get ready we are going to the studio." I said before going upstairs.

I went upstairs and took a shower then got ready, we will be going to the studio and for our launch party. Now I just have to get a hold of Jisung.

This music video is a bit different from our pervious works but I'm hoping our fans will love it regardless.

Our new album will be out, and this video is the first of the few.

I hope to God wherever Hyunjin is he is okay, I wanted to go after him that night, but Minho came up to me instead and gave me a piece of his mind. Somehow, I feel as if maybe Jisung isn't watching out for him in some way.

Call me an asshole but I wanted Hyunjin to see how good he was, I want him to see the video. I wanted him to see how far he's come; from everything I've put him through he deserves some recognition.

Believe it or not but when I saw Hyunjin's picture that day I actually went and looked up their danceracha group. There were many artists that had enjoyed working with them and many who enjoyed having them on their tracks. I looked up Hyunjin specifically and I was in awe of everything I saw and heard.

His dancing, his voice, it was all amazing.

Hyunjin was breathtakingly beautiful in every way.