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Chapter 57

{A/N Hi guys if your reading this far that means you've read a lot of my book and I cant thank you enough. The ones who started from the beginning with me I truly love you, as do I love anyone who reads this. Thanks so much. This chapter is pretty big, I really hope you like it}

Harrys POV

Naturally Alison springs her eyes open in response but then immediately closes them and kisses me back heavily. As the  kiss deepens I move forward laying Alison down as I hold myself up on top of her. Our lips don't break for a second. We continue kissing for another two minutes before things start to escalate. Alison lifts my shirt up attempting to take it off when I stop her breaking the kiss.

"Wait" I say out of breath

"What?" Alison asks confused after taking a breath

"I don't want to do anything your not comfortable with" I say as I move myself off Alison

Alison sits up
"I was fine couldn't you tell?"

"You were just caught up in the moment" I say softly

"No its fine I get it" says Alison as she gets off the couch

"You're mad" I say a bit annoyed

"I'm not mad" Alison snaps
"I just forgot that I'm not like Lindsey"

"What" I snap and stand up

"I'm not anything like Lindsey and that's why you don't want to do anything with me" she says clearly upset

And before I can really think about it I yell "exactly" and raise my arms up. I didn't really hear the last part of her sentence. I want to do things with her more then anything.

Alison's jaw drops in shock and starts walking away

"No no" I yell and grab her arm
"That's not what I meant at all"

Alison whips around with tears in her eyes
"Then what did you mean harry please explain"

"I mean exactly what I said" I pause "That yes you aren't like Lindsey at all, your pure and good" I pause for a second again "and fuck you're beautiful, Lindsey is none of those things. Usually I would of just had sex with you right then and there and believe me I really wanted too, but your not like the other girls I've dated. I would never use you like I use them, because there's something more with you." I look down for a second "And look I don't know what's going on.. I've never felt this way about anyone. And ever since I saw you I've felt myself changing and I just want to make sure that if we do ever do stuff that it means as much to you as it does to me"

Alison bites her lip then walks over to me and kisses me passionately. We both wrap our arms around one another holding each other close as we kiss. Alison then rests her head on my shoulder and whispers "Thank you" I smile in response and we continue in our embrace for a few more seconds until she pulls away and smiles softly.

"Oh yeah" she says as she walks over to her bag
"Here's your pill" she hands me a pill and a glass of water

"Are you really going to watch me swallow this pill?" I ask

"Yep I know how you boys work. I've seen the movies" she responds and I look at her a bit confused.

"We aren't in the movies" I say and take the pill

"let me check" she says and walks to me

I groan and open my mouth. I know how stubborn she is so it just saves time if I do as she says because last time I didn't she started crying and reminding me about my fail at attempting suicide.

"But come on this situation is not exactly normal" she says as she checks my mouth.
"Okay your good" she smiles

"This would make a hell of a good movie" I joke

"Does being bipolar get hard sometimes?" she asks randomly but serious

"Umm yah I guess, I mean with the mood swings comes anger and being bipolar increases your anger so once it triggers my anger it also increases it. So sometimes I feel like its not really me in there, and that sometimes with getting into fights its not all entirely my fault"
I pause
"Its the monster inside of me"

"I'm sorry" she says and looks down

I smile softly
"No ones ever said that before"

"Said what?" she looks up

"That they're sorry"

Alison looks at me

"Its just nice to know that someone gives a fuck you know?"

"Well I do" she pauses
"I do give a fuck about you"

I laugh
"I think that's the first time I've ever heard you say  fuck"

She blushes
"I know I feel so bad" she says obviously proud of herself

I glare at her playfully

"I mean I fucking say fuck all the time fucker" she says with a gangster accent

I burst out laughing as does she
"That's so not you" I say as I wrap my arm around her shoulders and walk to the stairs.

"You could teach me how to be a badass" she giggles and looks up at me

"I could"
"But I'd much rather you be you"
I smile and kiss her head as we walk up the stairs

"Goodnight Harry"

"Goodnight Ali" I say and she blushes

She smiles and starts to walk to her room when I grab her arm and spin her back to me planting a small kiss on her lips.

"Goodnight" I say again as our foreheads touch

"Goodnight" says Alison and smiles

We both walk to our rooms and call it a night