Sanders Sides OneShots

I'm sorry (Analogical)

T.W. Self-harm, crying, self-hate, death/suicide.

"To you,
You know who you are.
You saved me.
You didn't know I was going to kill myself that day. You didn't know what I was going through.
You let me cry, you let me open up, you gave me friends.
You built up my courage. Even when I'd been knocked down to my lowest.
I will forever be grateful.
You showed me love. You showed me how to feel.
You took me in.
I was your all.
I was sat in the library, knowing I would go home and end it all.
You sat, we talked. I got your number.
I went home knowing I would still end it.
Then you texted me.
I told you I didn't matter. You should just go.
You refused.
You said I was worth it. I was worth everything.
You stayed up all night on the phone with me, just so I wouldn't do something stupid.
I didn't know you were going through the same.
I thought you were happy. I told you to talk to me.
You said you were fine.
I believed you.
Why?
You were convincing.
You convinced me you were fine, so you could make sure I was okay.
You fell asleep crying, after you thought I'd fallen asleep.
You were convincing.
If only they knew.
No one knew your pain.
No one knew you were suffering.
Only me.
I didn't do enough.
I didn't do anything.
I'm sorry.
If only I did what you did.
Maybe you'd be here.
Maybe we wouldn't be here now.
Maybe I wouldn't cry myself to sleep.
Maybe I'd have told you "I love you"
I'm too late. I wasn't enough.
I didn't matter. I wasn't worth it.
Not for you to suffer.
Without you I'm nothing.
You were my everything.
I'm sorry.
I love you"
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I take this blade to my wrist to join you.
For the ache in my heart, to end.
For the sadness I endure, to leave.
For this life, to end.

"I'm sorry."

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I'm sorry
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