Through My Looking Glass 🔬

There's This Guy

Well, there's this guy that I know
That I might have feelings for
He has gorgeous green
And this cute little smile
And well, I've liked him for quite a long while
He makes me laugh
He makes me blush
And oh goodness when I see his name on my phone screen, I go into a rush
I talk to him a lot, almost every day
He's such a clown, and he makes me laugh almost every day
I can't stop thinking about him
Even though, I try my very best
I like him a lot, and that kinda scares me
Cause the experiences I've left, have made crushes scary
I've been hurt so much over the years of my life
That I automatically assume thay vrushes mean strife
And yeah, I'm getting used to this crush, cause it's been a few months
But that's exactly what scares so gosh darn much
What if I get used to him, and he ends up hurting me again?
What if he ends up not liking me so much, and I lose him as a friend?
What do I do if he just walks away?
What do I do if I'm left broken again?
I've spent years of my life just building up my walls
And somehow I meet him and they all just immediately fall
All my defenses are gone, and I'm completely terrified
Cause what if the the crush that I so like, ends up being my demise
All the guys that I've liked in my life have all just hurt me, and they all seem the same
So, why is he so different to me
I cannot ignore these questions in my mind
I keep mulling it over, yet my doubts are all I ever find
So, I'll admit that he's sweet
Sure, I find him cute
But what if all these doubts and worries that I have come true?
What if I trust him, and I end up hurt?
What if he ends up hurt too?
Gosh, I sound terrified, cause that's what I feel
But I guess for now, I'll just pretend these doubts aren't real
I'll ignore my worries, cause maybe everything will turn out fine
But till then I'll just pretend these things aren't real
And if I do end up heartbroken, like I have through my life
Then I'll put my heart back together, and I'll pretend I'm just fine
I've survived all the heartbreak, and hurt through the years
But this might end up being a very good choice
I'm willing to take a chance, even if only this once
Cause maybe for once in my life, I'll end up being and feeling something more than fine
So, with these words I end my poem
Guys, please just take a chance, cause until we try, we won't know
And if it ends up in heartbreak, move on, and let go