Through My Looking Glass 🔬

I Wish I Could Take Back...

I wish I could take back all the times that I've seen myself as not worthy. I wish I could take back all the times that I didn't stand up for myself, all the times that I treated myself like shit, and all the times that I cared about people who didn't give a fuck about me. If I would've known how much damage it would do to me, I would have changed what I did,and I surely wouldn't have let people walk over me the way that I always let them. Looking back, I didn't deserve to be treated the way I was, but you know what? That was all my fault, it was my fault for not standing up for myself, for not believing that I didn't deserve to be treated that way. I let people walk over me, I let them treat me that way, and I did absolutely nothing to stop them. I let them handle me like I was worth nothing, I let them hurt me with their words, and worst of all I never went away from the people who hurt me. I stayed with them, for reasons I don't even know why, maybe I thought that they'd be kinder one day or maybe because that because I thought I had to stay there because I knew them for a long time. And now that I look back on all of the shit that happened in my life, I realize that if I would've set my boundaries or at least stood up for myself and not let my mind and heart be filled with those hurtful words and actions, then my life wouldn't have been so full of pain and shit. I think that people all over the world would like to blame their pain on someone else, and yeah, sometimes it really was other people's faults and sometimes you can't change that, but I think usually we allow people to treat us the way they do. We allow them to hurt us time and time again, and we get so used to allowing them to do that to us, to hurt us with their words and actions, that we start to genuinely believe everything they say to us, and we just accept how they treat us. We lay down like mats, and we just let people walk all over us, we don't even try to fight them, we just allow them to walk over us. We believe we deserve that, and the truth is, we don't, no one does. No one deserves to be treated like crap, and absolutely no one deserves to be walked over. We are not destined  to be walked over by people who couldn't care less about us, we are kings and queen, princes and princesses, and we do not deserve to be treated like crap. Not even our own minds deserve to treat us like crap, because we are all special, unique, beautiful and amazing, and we are all worth more than gold, diamonds and rubies, and we should start to believe that. When we believe all the good things about us, and not accept the bad hurtful words that we hear from others or ourselves, then we will not only start to look like those things on the inside, we will radiate all those things on the outside too. So, my challenge for you all (or whichever awesome person is reading this) , stand up for yourselves, believe the good things about you, don't let anyone treat you like crap, and set your boundaries. Have a good day, week, month, and even year, or at least what's left of it. Thanks to whoever reads this, and I hope you realize all these things are true ❤️