What people don't know

Chapter 24

I feel someone shaking my shoulders, I quickly open my eyes and i look around me. I am in my room, I see that Corbs looks at me with worried eyes. "Ellie you okey?" he says, I just look at my hands, I swear that the blood and everything felt so real. "Ellie?" Corbs repeats and he grabs my hands. I look up to his face, "Y-yeah i am fine" I say while i struggle with talking. "Ellie, where were you?" he asks and i know what he means. I once explained exactly what was happening in my nightmare. It sucks that that memorie keeps coming back in the form of a nightmare. "Mom" I say and that's the only word i can say before i feel that the puke is coming up my throat, i've never been good with blood and dead people so i always get super nauseous when i see that. I quickly get of the bed and i run to the little bathroom we have, I quickly grab a hair tie to put my hair up in a bun. When i did that i lean on the toilet seat with my hands, I close my eyes. I feel the puke coming up, the burning feeling. I taste it and i gag.

When i'm done with throwing up i wash my mouth and my face, I walk back into my room and Corbs is still sitting on the bed, he has a really concerned face. "Ellie you need to talk to someone about this" he says and i shrug my shoulders, "I talk to you" I say while i grab my phone and look at the time. It's now 6 am, damn i woke up at the right moment. "Elle" Corbs says with a demanding tone in his voice, I turn around and look at him. "I am serious, you've been having that nightmare for over a year now" he says, he is true but well what can i do about it. "Yeah but i'll be fine, it will go away eventually" I say and i grab my work clothes out of my closet. "Ellie, I only had it for a month. You have it for over a year this isn't good" I know that he's right but i don't want to admit that. "Well i'm fine. It's nothing" I say and i lie, "Elle" Corbs says. He's not using my nickname and that means that he is kinda mad. I turn around and i look at him, "Look Corbs, I know that it isn't good that i still have that nightmare but what can i do about it?" I ask and i sit down at the bed. That nightmare is kinda killing me to be honest. I was sleeping next to Corbs but i still got it. "You should talk to a therapist about it, you even got it now. I am laying next to you but you still got it. Didn't you feel safe?" he asks. Me and Corbs figured out that when i don't feel safe i get that nightmare. "I don't know" I say, I really don't know why the hell i got that nightmare again. I look at the time and i see the date. "Oh nevermind" I say and I keep looking at my phone. "it's today isn't it" Corbs says and only nod as an answer.