What people don't know

Chapter 65

I start with cleaning the coffee machine, Jonah won't tell me what he told Daniel and it's starting to annoy me. "Jonah why can't you tell me?" I say and Jonah smiles, "Cause i said so" he says and i roll my eyes.

I try to convince him into telling me for the next 20 minutes, then it's time for us to go home. I grab my teddy bear and my bag, I walk outside and i grab my phone to call an uber. "You don't need an uber or anything, i can give you a ride" Jonah says, "Oh okey" I say and i climb on his motorcycle. He drives me home, when we arrive at the apartment i give him a hug and thank him for the ride. Then i enter the apartment building and i walk up the stairs, I really don't want to enter the apartment... Everything reminds me of Corbs. I miss him, I am so scared that he's not gonna make it. I am honestly so scared.

I unlock the door and i get in, I put Tommy on my bed, I undress and i change into a sweater from corbs and i get in bed. I grab the sweater which smells like Corbs and i put it on Tommy. I take Tommy in my arms and i lie down. I don't want to sleep, i really don't, but i know i have to. I slowly close my eyes and i start to drift asleep.

Me and Corbs are sitting on the ground, holding each other tightly. The sirens come closer and closer and we don't move. My hands are all bloody and i am shaking, I just killed someone. I'm a horrible person.

The wounds on my stomach start to hurt, I am glad this nightmare is over, but we did lose our mom... Mom... I look at Corbs and he has his eyes closed, he also has tears on his face. Does he know about mom? If he doesn't then i need to tell him, I cough so i can get my voice to work, "Corbs" i say and he opens his eyes, they're red and puffy from crying, "Ellie?" he says, "D-do you know about m-mom" I say while i try to hold my tears in but it isn't really working. "Y-yeah" he says and i pull him back into the hug and i'm not planning on letting him go anytime soon. Then the police enters the room with guns and they also have ambulance staff with them. They run to us and they take us apart, I don't have the strength to fight them so i just let it happen, the staff starts to examine us. When they're done the police starts asking questions, but cause we're both a bit traumatized we're not really able to talk. We're being brought to this place where we can sleep and eat, I grab Corbs his hand and i'm not gonna let go of him.

I open my eyes and i take a deep breath, I'm glad i am this part of the nightmare cause it kinda feels good. I was with Corbs, I turn over to look at him but then i realize that he's in the hospital. Tears slowly start to roll down my cheeks, i miss Corbs so much. Is this what it feels like to be all alone? I don't have anyone if he's not with me. Mom is gone, Dad is gone and i never known my grandparents. And now Corbs is in a coma...

I get up from my bed and i turn on a very hot shower and i get in, my tears mix with the water from the shower.

When i really need to get out i turn off the water and i wrap a towel around me. I walk to my room and I grab a tanktop and some sport shorts. When i put it on i lift my tanktop up and i look at the little scars i have on my stomach, they're very small but if you know they're there you can't unsee them. I follow the lines, my dad stabbed me with a knife twice and i pulled the knife out myself, that was the knife i used to kill my dad, ironic huh? I pull my tanktop down again and i walk to the kitchen, I suddenly hear a sound coming from the hallway, I open the drawer with the knifes and i immediately grab one. I hold it up and i slowly walk to the door, I listen if there's someone. Then i hear some people talking and joking around with each other, it was nothing. Jeez Elle why are you so incredibly tensed?