STAR TREK IMAGINES

Lieutenant Commander Data

A/n: warning, mentions of grieving and reader lashes out at Data and has a meltdown, a kin to Dean Winchester. Anyways, don't read if any of that will be a trigger to you.

"Why won't these people shut up!"
You cursed in your head, trying to keep your focus solely on the screens in front of you.
But as a few lieutenants behind you wouldn't stop gossiping about some on planet drama they encountered.
Normally, this would mean nothing to you, water off a ducks back.
But today marked the first year since the last time you saw someone you loved greatly, they died almost a week later.

"I don't want to talk about it data"
You warned the droid, trying to keep calm despite how much anger you could feel bubbling in your chest.
"Why won't this stop"
"Dear god please make this go away"
Despite the venom coming out of your mouth, you felt like a wreck in your mind, you just wanted to lock yourself away from him until you could calm down but he wouldn't stop pushing.
"JUST GO AWAY"
Finally the anger bubbled over, and you lost control.
Data paused, leaving the room without another word.
Walking into your bathroom, hot tears burned in your eyes- your cheeks and ears burned just the same in anger. You couldn't control the pain anymore and you couldn't even tell if the anger in your mind was at Data or yourself.
When your eyes met your reflection in the mirror, the overwhelming amount of disgust you felt at your reflection tore another scream from your throat before your fist connected with glass in front of you.
Your mind went completely blank, anything that was within arms reach was being thrown but all you see was red.
You failed the person you loved even in death, and now you're failing the only person who loved you in life- you let out another scream before you fell to the floor.
Dear god why does this have to hurt so badly, your chest feels like it's collapsing and there's nothing you can do.
You can't even open your eyes because you know when you see what you've done, you'd never recover from the guilt.
Before you can do that though, a pair of warm hands gently pulls you off the floor.
Never in your life had you been so happy to see such beautiful golden eyes.
"I'm sorry, I'm so so sorry.. I'm so so sorry"
Your voice broke multiple times as you let out a constant stream of apologies.
"You are bleeding my love, I did promise that I would take care of you regardless of the circumstances"
You could only continue to babble apologies as Data cleaned you up.
Eventually, Data pauses, before his pale golden hands wrap around your body. In that moment you'd never clung tighter to Data, sobbing your heart out into his chest as he just let you.
Almost ten minutes had passed now, of dead silence in the room, minus your cries. Data continued to pet you, his hands gently rubbing circles against your back.
"C-can y-you forgive me? I've been terrible to you data, I'm so so sorry"
You asked softly, your voice hoarse.
"Yes. You have disclosed to me the reason of your suffering before. I have found it to be a natural response to humans when they lose a loved one, to lash out- my love for you in unchanged"
Your arms squeezed around Data's body even tighter, before he let out a soft hum, squeezing your body with the same pressure.
"Before we go to bed and do the customary cuddles, it would be advisable to clean up the wreckage"
Data spoke softly, helping you to your feet.
"Agreed Data. I love you so very much, you know that?"
"I do. I love you so very much too"