STAR TREK IMAGINES

Commander Spock

I silently cried as Spock laid on the med-bay table
The horrific vision of the reanimated corpses of the people on the planet below the ship, coming towards us, growling and grunting like pigs, their hands reaching out clawing at us.
I was shook out of the living nightmare by Jim
"I'm sorry y/n, all we can do is wait for Spock to wake up" he gingerly petted my shoulder
"I know Jim, I know but if he dies because of me I'll never forgive myself"
I held it together for the most part as Jim left the room again.
More nightmares of Spock, distracting them he fell back at first landing right on a wooden spike of a fallen over cart. I was hidden away so that I could still see him, I'd also been stabbed but that had happened a while ago so I was already bandaged and healing, I was holding on to the fear and adrenaline that were pumping through my veins. I saw the familiar sparkle of the transporter in the sky far away so I hoped Spock had gotten out of here
"Enterprise! Get me out of here!"
I was already sobbing as I whisper shouted into my communicator.
I had built up a little wall of mud as they limped around me. The communicator was only making some hissing noise and I couldn't do anything about
it. I knew I had to do the one thing I didn't want to
But as I began to tear away the wall a hand shoved straight through it, the fingers grabbing for me.
I did not react as calmly as I hoped instead going for the screaming and shoving method, surprisingly that worked giving me a moment to get up and away I was able to run away with shocking speed.
"Enterprise!"
I wasn't able to finish as I felt hands clawing at my shoulders, just as quickly as I felt the hands on my back I was back on the enterprise.
Bones told me anything he needed to do for me shouldn't take to long, that's why I'm able to sit with Spock. His condition was much worse then mine, according to bones where the spike had hit him was dangerously close to his heart, he had lost to much blood trying to run away without an donor All Bones could do was operate and hope for the best.
I felt more guilt pinging in my heart as I remembered before the outbreak, Spock had pulled me aside confessing that he loved me in shock I didn't say anything back.
Now as I remembered how he saved me, and protected me, and I couldn't tell the Vulcan who I loved the most that I do love him.
It was now night shift, I should be going to the bridge now but I wanted just one more minute.
"I'm sorry Spock, I love you"
I gently kissed his cheek before going to the bridge
I took Spocks place on the bridge, trying to put everything behind me.
It went by so quickly Tharp it felt only minutes between me leaving the med-bay and coming back
"You're awake!"
I shouted partly in shock, with a touch of anger that no one said anything to me.
I started crying quietly again as I slid back into my spot, he adjusted to look at me
"You're crying over me is highly illogical"
He groaned, obviously putting in effort to talk.
"I'm sorry, but if you died I could never forgive myself" My voice cracked at the end, Spock lifted himself up again.
"If it wasn't such a foolish emotion I would say you are beginning to astound me y/n l/n, you would let my death impact you so much that you would never move on. These people need you"
He began to speak with his usual clarity, he seemed to be improving every moment he's awake.
"That's what happens when you love someone"