You're My Forever

Mental Health Day | 49

The Next Day... 

"Wake up Roni. Wake up..."

I slowly began waking up to someone's soft voice telling me to do so. I groaned quietly, putting my hands over my face as my eyes scrunched shut tighter. I felt a hand gently caressing the top of my head. I rubbed my eyes before slowly beginning to open them. 

I looked over to see my dad looking at me with a soft smile. He was on his knees beside my bed so he was leveled with me. 

"Sorry, di-did I sleep in..?" I asked him tiredly with a slightly raspy voice. "No you're fine. You're not going to school today." He told me quietly, his smile slightly growing. "What?" I asked, still tired as I sat up in bed a bit. 

"Mom told me you've been really down these past few days so I thought you could use a mental health day. And since I don't have work until night time, I figured we could spend the day together." He told me. I couldn't help but smile. I don't know how I got so lucky to have such amazing parents. "Thank you dad.." I said, quietly, leaning in and hugging him. He chuckled a little bit as he hugged me back with one arm. 

"But before that," He pulled from the hug. "here." He said, handing me a paper, envelope and pen. "What do I do with these?" I asked him, my eyebrows furrowing as I grabbed them from him. 

"I know you. Which means that I know for a fact that you won't be able to forget about Jack while we're out today. But this will help you. I'm giving you twenty minutes and twenty minutes only to write a letter to him, but don't actually give him it. Write anything and everything you're feeling and whatever you wish you could tell him. After the twenty minutes, put your letter in the envelope and seal it. Don't open it ever again Roni. Consider that you leaving your feelings of sadness behind for the day." He explained to me. "You think that'll help?" I asked him. "Keep a good mindset about it and I'm sure it will." He told me with a smile as he stood up. "Alright, I'll try." I smiled a bit as well. 

"Ok, I'll come back in twenty then." He told me. I nodded and then he left my room. 

I got out of bed and went to brush my teeth. After that I came back to my room and sat down at my desk with the paper, pen and envelope. 

At first, I was just sitting there, completely unknowing of what to write. There was just so much, I didn't know where to start. But then, once I started writing, I couldn't stop. My hand didn't stop moving for even a second.

Sadly, only a couple words in, tears began filling my eyes to the max. Some fell onto the paper, smudging the ink. But I continued to keep writing, despite the fact that I was pretty much crying now. 

I finished writing about five minutes before the twenty minute mark. Once I finished writing, I was still crying when I decided to read it over again. 

Dear Jackson,

You've been by my side my entire life(except for last year).. You're the one who got me through all my downfalls in life so far. But now it's looking like you won't be there for the rest. But I can't blame you.. For all you know, I cheated on you. Only I know I didn't.
I just miss you... I miss hearing your voice. I miss seeing your smile. I miss being close with you. I miss being in our treehouse together. I miss holding you, you holding me. I miss your touch, your scent, your taste. I miss running my hands all over you. I miss making unforgettable memories with you, or making jokes with you, or doing funny things with you. 
I want you to be back in my grasp, Jackson. You were the best thing that could've ever happened to me and I let you slip through my fingers. I hate myself more than I hate anything, even Ema, for letting something like this happen. But it's not losing you that I hate the most, it's hurting you...
I'm so sorry Jack... I'm sorry I broke your spirits. And that I'm the reason that you don't smile anymore. I'm sorry I made your heart hurt. And that I'm the reason for the tears that fill your mesmerizingly gorgeous eyes.
I cry every night without fail. I know that you're gone, but my heart is just refusing to accept that. I wish there was something I could say or do to bring you back into my arms but I don't think there is.. And it fucking kills me to know that you're mad at me.
You're the light of my life Jack.. and without you, I'm left in the dark.
But I guess all good things come to an end.
I'm sorry, Jackson...

Veronica Lennon

After reading over my letter, tears were pouring down my cheeks. There were quite a few smudges on paper from my tears but it was still pretty readable. 

I was still crying softly when I heard a knock on my door. But I couldn't stop crying as the door opened. I heard the footsteps walk over to me as I put my head in my hands. 

"Roni..." I heard my dad say quietly, his hand rubbing my back gently. He continued to do so for a couple minutes more until finally, I calmed down. 

He turned my spinning chair to face him before kneeling down in front of him. "How do you feel?" He asked me calmly, moving some of my hair from my bangs out of my eyes. He slid his fingers across my cheeks to wipe away some of my tears. I took a deep breath.

I realized I was actually feeling a bit better. Finally, I let out ALL of my feelings after bottling them up for way too long. It felt really relieving. Obviously I wasn't not upset anymore though...

"I feel better.. thanks. I love you." I whispered, my voice a bit shaky. I leaned down to him and hugged him tight. He hugged me back just as tight, kissing my cheek. 

He hugged me tight for about a minute straight before we both pulled back. I smiled softly and so did he.

He stood up and grabbed my letter. Without reading a word, he folded it and put it in the envelope. "Alright. Seal this then get dressed. I'll meet you at the front door in ten." He said with a smile.

So, he left my room and I grabbed the envelope. I licked the seal then closed it. For an extra touch, I decided to write 'To: Jackson Meyer' in big letters on the envelope. At the bottom corner, in much small letters, I wrote 'From: Veronica'. 

After that, I put the letter on my bedside table then went to my closet to get dressed.

I got dressed in black leggings with a tight fitted red t-shirt and I put my hair half up half down. After that, I went downstairs and met back with my dad. He smiled at me as he saw me which made me smile as well.

He opened the front door after we got our shoes on. "After you." He smiled. I laughed as I walked out the door, him following behind me.

Lucas's P.O.V... 

I walked into my first period class very happy and excited. I looked over at Roni's table and I got a little less happy when I didn't see her sitting there. It's ok, hopefully she was just running a bit late.

I walked over to my table and sat at my seat with my friends. 

Another ten minutes went by and by now I was very disappointed to see that Roni still wasn't here. I guess she wasn't coming to school today...

Dammit... Now I had to wait to do this until tomorrow..

That Evening...(Veronica's P.O.V) 

It was about 7:30 now and dad and I were at an amusement park. Before this, he took me to get crêpes and we went to go play a couple games of soccer together at the community center. We got here at about 4 pm.

I had a lot of fun! Surprisingly, the letter worked and I didn't think about any of my sadness for the entire day. I couldn't have been more thankful for my dad for this. 

Once we saw the sun beginning to set, we decided to go on the ferris wheel since it'd make a spectacular view for us. 

We waited in line for about two minutes before sitting down in the cart. Dad's arm went around me as we both looked out the windows at the gorgeous sunset. 

"Did you have fun today?" Dad asked me quietly. "I had the most fun I've had in a while today.. I needed this, thanks dad.." I said quietly, resting my head on his shoulder. "Of course darling.. I'm glad you feel better. Just remember not to open that letter again." He told me the last part firmly. "I definitely won't. I don't need any reminders of what I'm feeling." I said, just as firmly. "That's my girl." He smiled, patting my arm as his arm stayed around me. 

So after talking a bit more, we stayed silent for the rest of the ride as we watched the sunset.

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