You're My Forever

Very Depressing | 45

The Next Day... 

Last night I got maybe four hours of sleep if even. But for a lot of the night, I was up thinking about what I lost and sometimes crying. And this morning I woke up feeling extremely tired. But I knew that even if I tried to go back to sleep, it wouldn't work. So staying home from school would be pretty pointless. 

So despite my exhaustion, I got but from bed and went to my closet to get dressed. I didn't at all feel like trying to look pretty today. I got dressed in all grey sweats, left my hair down, then went to brush my teeth. I went outside and just drove to school because I knew Jack wouldn't want to walk with me like usual. 

Once I got to school, I walked up to my class with my head hung low and my hands in my pockets. Once I got to my class, I sat at my regular seat.

Lucas's P.O.V... 

I walked into the room and right away, my eyes moved to Roni at her seat. She really didn't look so good.. She had her head hung low as she just sat there, waiting for class to start. 

I contemplated going to sit with her but then I remembered what she said yesterday. She told me not to sit with her. I sighed as I walked over and took a seat with my other friends in this class.

But even sitting with my other friends, my eyes stayed on her all the way across the room. Goddamn, I felt so bad. I wanted to help her by telling Jack everything so bad but I just couldn't because of the stupid money.

I just wanted her to stop hurting and for me to be her friend again...

Lunch...(Jackson's P.O.V)

All day today so far felt very depressing for me. I both looked and felt like a mess. My eyes were still red from crying and lack of sleep, my face was also a bit puffy and my hair was a bit messy because I didn't attempt to fix my appearance this morning.

I didn't feel in the mood to talk to anyone but at the same time, I didn't want to be alone either because I knew I'd start crying again if I was. I was definitely in no mood to see or speak to Roni so I avoided her. And since I avoided her during lunch, I couldn't sit with Coltin, Shayna and Jeremy either. 

Instead, I decided to sit with my guy friends. I found them in the cafeteria and silently sat beside Dean. I was quick to put my head down on the table and wrap my arms around it. "Jack, bro, what are you doing?" I recognized his voice to be Griffin. 

I looked up at him but before I could speak, Calum spoke up. "Damn, have you been drinking or something?" He asked me. He probably saw my red eyes and messed up appearance and that was the first thing he thought. I shook my head, running my fingers through my hair. 

"S-Something happened between R-Roni and I.." I spoke quietly, looking down. "What happened?" Calum asked me, sounding concerned. So, I pretty much explained everything to all four of them. And they all knew I hated Lucas so they were just as shocked as me. 

"What the hell?!" Griffin said, shocked. "You were definitely right to break up with her then.." Dean said, sighing. Calum, Dean and Griffin all seemed pretty mad on my behalf. But Elijah was oddly silent in the beginning. 

He looked up at me so I looked at him as well. "What if she was telling the truth?" Elijah asked, finally speaking up. I furrowed my eyebrows. "What?" I said quietly. "When she said that she had no idea Lucas would kiss her. How do you know she was lying?" He asked me, crossing his arms. 

"Are you.. on her side, or something..?" I asked him, a bit of rage building up in me. "I didn't say that. I don't really think I'm on anyone's side. She could obviously very well be actually cheating but you could also easily be misunderstanding.." He told me, shrugging. The rage was building up even more and one of my hands slowly began balling up into a fist.