You're My Forever

Acting Weird | 58

3 Days Later... 

Things with Jackson were getting worse and worse day by day. Now, pretty much all I could think about when I'm with Jackson is that he may think this relationship is meaningless or not important. And I hated that more than anything because it prevented me from showing my affection towards him. And it also prevented me from enjoying his affection towards me. 

Speaking of that, that has gotten much worse too. It was to the point where I could barely stand him holding my hand anymore. For the past three days, I've barely let him kiss me and when we did kiss, it was probably no longer than ten seconds.

I'm not sure if he's caught on but he hasn't said anything about it so I guess that was good...

But I've been missing him so much.. I missed showing him affection without getting that bad feeling in my chest. I missed kissing him, holding him, making love with him, sleeping with him, hugging him and cuddling him.. There's more but the list could go on for a while...

But I guess I just had to slowly let the thought die out. 

So, I got out of bed and went to my closet to get dressed. I got dressed in a fitted grey sweatshirt with some denim black ripped shorts. I left my hair down, brushed my teeth, then went to school with Jack. 

Jackson's P.O.V... 

Roni has been acting REALLY weird this past week... I didn't know if she was mad at me, or what but she's been so physically distant. Verbally, she wasn't acting as weird but it still wasn't the same. 

She would never kiss me anymore and whenever I tried to kiss her, she'd either find a way to subtly dodge it or she'd manage to cut it WAY shorter than I intended. And it wasn't even just kissing her that was weird, it was more than that. 

We'd never spend the night together anymore, not even sexually(not that we did that either), but just cuddling and sleeping too unless it was a movie night in the treehouse. I'd ask her or sometimes we'd even already be together, but she'd always find a way to end it. She'd never return romantic things I said to her like she used to either. She'd never let me hold or cuddle her anymore. I rarely got to hold her hand anymore. 

Honestly, from the way she was treating me and us, it really didn't even feel like we were a couple anymore. We acted more like friends who occasionally kiss a little and sometimes call the other 'baby'. Except it was only me who called her baby sometimes now. 

I had to confirm this wasn't all just in my mind though. Today at lunch, I was going to do something couple-ish, maybe even just trying to make out with her or something. If she backed out of it, then that would be my confirmation that I'm not just going crazy. 

Veronica's P.O.V... 

I went up to my first period class and sat beside Lucas like usual. "Hey." I said to Lucas with a small smile as I side hugged him. He returned the greeting. 

"So, has it gotten any better with Jack yet?" He asked me, looking hopeful. "No.. it's getting worse. I miss being able to treat him as my actual boyfriend..." I sighed. 

"M-Maybe you should just talk to him about it Roni.." Lucas suggested, sounding a little bit nervous. I looked at him. "I can't, this is the kind of stuff he'd 100% blame himself for and feel bad about. He can't change his past, there's nothing he can do." I explained. 

"But still. He's the only one who can give you the closure you need. And waiting for the thought to just fade away like what I'm assuming you're doing, won't give you that closure." He told me. "I just can't.. He's going to take it to heart and think it's his fault when in reality, he didn't even do anything wrong..." I sighed, slouching down a bit in my seat. 

Lunch...(Jackson's P.O.V)

 Once the lunch bell rang, I was quick to go downstairs and to Roni's locker. Luckily, when I turned the corner, I saw her there. She was just shutting her locker so I made it perfectly in time. I quickly rushed up to her. I greeted her with a smile just as I got to her and she did the same. She turned to me after locking her locker. 

"Let's go out the back of the school." I said, still smiling as I pushed some of her hair behind her ear. "How come?" Roni asked me with a small laugh. "Well since you're my girlfriend, I figured I could have some alone time with you." I said, putting emphasis on the word 'girlfriend' I guess to kind of subtly make a point even though I knew she wouldn't get it. "Alright then." She said, still laughing a little bit as she linked her arm with mine. 

We walked to the back of the school then out the back doors. I couldn't get my mind off Roni's weird behavior so I just had to get right to this 'test'. I just decided to go with the first idea I had since it didn't really matter that much what I did to test her. 

"So, where do you w--" I cut her off by grabbing her hips and pushing her against the cold, concrete outside wall of the school. My body pressed hard against hers and her hands went on my shoulders out of reflex. She looked genuinely surprised.

"Been a while, huh.." I smirked before pressing my lips hard onto hers, my arms going around her waist. She only kissed me back for like four seconds before her hands went against my chest, pushing a little bit. Obviously I wasn't going to force myself onto her so I pulled back, my forehead going against hers. 

"Jack, I-I've been feeling a little sick and I have a s-small cold s-so you shouldn't kiss me.." She said quietly, stuttering a little bit. Well, she failed that test.. Clearly she didn't have a cold, she was wearing freaking shorts. Also, her forehead was against mine and she felt completely fine. She also hasn't sneezed or coughed or even sniffled once today. I was a little irritated but I tried my best not to show it. "Alright.." I said quietly, taking a step away from her. 

Despite the fact that I knew she was lying, I didn't want to call her out on it. She had to have had a reason for all of this. And that's when the thought came to me..

Did she want to break up with me..? I couldn't see any other valid reason besides this.. No, no she didn't. She wanted to be with me. If she didn't then she'd have broken up with me by now.

So, I kept living on for now with this phase of denial.

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