The Secrets We Keep

The next next year April 1-drafts

Vanessa POV*

It's Sunday, April 4 and I'm 35 weeks. Kev thought that it would be a great idea to go out as a family of three one last time before the babies are born. So we're get dressed to do all of Val's favorite things. "Kev where's her shoes" I yell from Val's room as he walks in with then in hand. When I finish putting her shoes on, she hops off the bed to wait for me. As I stand up I feel warm liquid fall down my leg. "Pee pee" Val says pointing to the wet floor. "Baby can you go get Dada for me" I say holding onto the dresser as a contraction rips through my body.

Kevin POV*

I'm in the kitchen when I her little foot step walk down the stairs. I walk over to the stair and pick up Val. "Mama went pee pee " she says. "Where?" I ask as she point to upstairs. I put her down and run upstairs. "Vanessa!" I say running to all the rooms. "In here" she says. "My water broke but I've only had one contr-" she starts to say as the next one hits. "How far apart was that?" I ask as we walk down the stairs. "It's not that far we can wait it out" she's down playing everything that just happened. "Vanessa". "It was 15 minutes, but we're going to the hospital at 5 minutes apart" she says sitting on the couch. "Okay" I say going back upstairs to get her a new pair of pants, The hospital bag, and both car seats. I walk back downstairs and Val is playing in the kitchen and Vanessa's still in the same spot. "Hey I brought you some clean pants" I say help her up and taking off the dirty pant. She holds onto my shoulders as she steps in to the black leggings. I bring them up to her knees when I feel her hand dig into my shoulders and her head rest on my chest. "Is it another one" I say pulling up the rest of the leggings. All she does is let out a groan.

Vanessa POV*

When it stops I sits back down on the couch. "That was 12 minutes we're going to the hospital V" Kev say. "Not today they're not ready" I says. "Baby, the doctor said 35 weeks was good for twins" he says. "I'm not ready! Okay! I'm not ready for boys" I say wiping the tears from my eyes. "We don't even know if they're boys, but if you'd let me take you to the hospital we can find out" he says squatting down to brushing the lose strands of my hair behind ear. "I can't go, I just can't do it" I say. "I'm scared. You were stopped by the police last week and all I could think about was what if that was Val or the twins one wrong move and they could be gone in an instant. The world already hates them how can I bring them into a world like this" I say crying even more. Kevin takes a deep breath before saying, "Your right that this world has a lot of bad people, we see that on a daily basis and we can't always be there for everything, but we will teach them how to be better than what the world expects them to be. We'll teach them to love everyone no matter where they're from or what they look like, we'll teach them to be generous and be kind to one another. We'll teach them to feel, let them know that it's okay to feel sad sometimes because their feelings matter to us. And we'll always try to there for every sweet and precious moment, to show them how much we love them everyday. "Okay" as he kisses my forehead. "You always know the right things to say" I say kissing him again. "I think I'm ready now" I say as Kev helps me off the couch. I try to take a step but another one hits and I hunch over putting my weight on Kevin. He holds my hand as I breathe through this contraction. I stop squeezing his hand when it stops. He helps me to the car first, then goes back for Val and the rest of the stuff.

We're on the road when the next one hits I shut my eyes and hold onto the inside door handle as I control my breathing. "You wanna hold my hand" he says as I shake my head no. "Mama" Val says from the back. "Val sweetheart, are you excited to meet your baby sisters or brothers" he says distracting her. "Yeah sister !" She say as I let out a breath. "That one was longer and minutes apart from the last" He says. "I'm good Kev" I say.

We get to my MED and Kev drops me of at the front while he parks. I in walk and there's a line to the nurses station so I wait. "Ma'am are you okay" a man in front of me asks. I am in the middle of a very painful contraction when he ask so I only shake my head no. "Umm excuse me this lady is having a baby" he announces in the middle of the ED. A nurse then walks up behind me with a wheelchair. I sit down letting out a long awaited breath. "Thanks man" I say before the nurse takes me up to the maternity ward of the hospital.

A couple contractions later and Kev opens the door to my room. "I'm here sorry, a nurse took Valentina to the daycare. How are you feeling" he ask taking my hand. "I'm ready for this to be over" I say before the doctor walks in. "Hi guy how are you doing Vanessa" Dr. Brown asks. "I'm uncomfortable" I say shifting off my side so she can check me. "Your  at 4 cm and you told the nurse you wanted an epidural right" the Doctor says. "Yes" I say. "I'll be back to do that" she says walking out. When she comes back she has me sit up and sit on the side of the bed with my feet off the edge. She has Kev stand in front of me and hold my hand as she sticks the needle into my spine. I tense up the needle hitting my skin. "Don't move your almost done" the doc says. I squeeze Kevin's hand until it over. "All done" she says as she helps me back to bed. "Now what" I ask. "Most patients sleep, just relax" she say walking out. I turn over to Kevin's side to talk. "Your amazing, I love you" he says kissing my forehead. "We should really think of names" I say trying to keep my eyes open. "We'll think of names later right now you should sleep" he says as I let the sleep take me over.

Hope y'all like this chapter.

-Cici