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The Last Night

TW anxiety

Fri Dec 4

Virgil stared at the clock on Logan's desk. It was almost seven. The alarm would go off at 7:30. He was still stressed out about exams. He knew he was going to fail them. He was already doing poorly in his classes. It took everything he had just to get his reading done. He was especially nervous for the oral exam on Monday. He looked at the Spanish notes scattered on his bed. He was too tired to understand them. He knew he needed to sleep, but he was too stressed. He was tossing and turning for hours before deciding to try studying. It wasn't going well. Now it was almost morning.

He sighed as he packed up his papers and laid down. He curled up under his blanket staring at the wall. He could try starting his day, but he didn't actually want to leave his bed yet. The bed was safe from the world's judgements and challenges. He could stress in peace.

Beep.

Beep.

Beep.

Virgil sighed as he rolled out of bed. He turned off the alarm and silently got changed. He went to the bathroom to finish getting ready.

"Good morning!" Roman said as he walked in.

Virgil grunted in response.

"Oh come on, Downer Junior! It's Friday! Smile!"

Virgil glared at him.

"I don't think Virgil will ever be a morning person," Logan said as he walked in. "Even on the last day of classes for the semester."

Virgil groaned.

"I'm not looking forward to finals," he muttered.

"There's also that," Logan said. "Are you doing any better? I know you were really stressed earlier this week."

"I'll be a lot happier when this is all over," Virgil said.

"I'll take that as a no," Roman said. "Is there anything we can do to help?"

"I don't know," Virgil sighed. "I just want to fast forward to winter break when I'm off of my crutches and classes and exams are over. Then I can sleep and relax."

"Then you can- wait are you not sleeping?!"Janus asked.

Virgil was confused. Did he just tell them he didn't sleep? Did he miss something?

"Wait, did I say that?" Virgil asked.

"Say that you aren't sleeping?" Logan asked.

"What's up bitches!" Remus said as he entered the bathroom.

"Shut up, Remus! We're in the middle of something!" Roman said. "Virgil, did you get any sleep last night?"

"I'm fine!" Virgil said. "It's fine! Don't worry about it!"

"Virgil!" Janus said. "You need sleep! This is a problem!"

"It's a lot easier to focus and study when you're well rested," Logan said.

"You guys act like I chose to stay up all night," Virgil muttered.

"What's that supposed to mean?" Remus asked.

Virgil sighed as he set down his eyeshadow.

"I tried to fall asleep. I did. I didn't touch my phone like Logan said and I laid there and tried to relax but my body wouldn't let me. My mind kept racing and my body was tense and I just... couldn't sleep. It's just part of having anxiety."

"Virgil... I really think you should try talking to a therapist," Logan said slowly. "There's only so much we can do."

Virgil sighed.