Merder the best of love

Chapter 9

2 weeks later

We have been having a lot of 'dates' lately. I bought a pack of 2 pregnancy tests from the supply closet. I was late which wasn't good, but I know Derek would make a really good dad. If I happened to be pregnant I know the kid would be in good hands. I put the tests in my pocket and went to the bathroom. No one was in there. I went into the stall and peed on the 2 sticks. I put that caps back on them when I was done. I put them in the wrapped and into my pocket. I had to do this quick. I flushed and washed my hands. I walked out of the bathroom and went to my locker. No one was in there, so I took the tests out of my pocket. I took them out of the wrapper and shut my eyes until I was ready. I finally looked and both of them said

Not pregnant

I was relieved, but also sad. Like I want a mini me one day, but I don't know if I'm pregnant. I mean I love Derek, but. WAIT I did not just think that. No I don't love him, how could I- 

I stopped thinking when I heard someone walk in. I turned around Derek was standing by the closed door. I quickly put the tests in the trash and he watched me. He smiled and I could see how I fell in love with him. I smiled back at his contagiousness.

"Sooo.." he questioned

"I'm not" I said

"Oh" he said taking his smile away

"Are you not happy" I laughed

"I mean. I can't really say that I am or not. Like I like you and everything, but I don't know how to feel. I've never felt this way before" he said

"Me neither" I sighed

"You sure it's negative" he questioned

"I'm sure" I said

He walked over to me and kissed my lips quick.

"What was that for" I said as he was walking towards the door

"I need something. I have a long surgery and needed someone" he laughed

I started giggling. He walked out of the room and I turned to grab my pager from my locker and started thinking again. He really wanted to be a dad. I'm not ready to be a mom. I mean I don't know. My mom was terrible to me and I don't want to be the same way to a kid, but Derek was different. He knew exactly what I wanted and needed. Mentally and physically. He knew how far and how slow to take stuff. I wouldn't mind having a kid with him. Wait no I'm coming out of my thoughts again. I grabbed my pager and clipped it onto my waistband. I walked out of the room and met with all of my class interns. We were with Bailey. I saw Derek with the corner of my eye and he was talking to a nurse. She was laughing. I don't know what or why this was happening, but I started getting really jealous.

Bailey cleared her throat

"Dr. Grey is there something more important about Dr. Shepherd you want to talk about" she yelled

I got startled by her voice. I looked at her

"No" I said

"Okay come with me" she said to all the interns

She grabbed a chart.

"Today you guys are all in the pit and before you say anything it's because I have a long surgery now move and do your jobs" she said walking away.

I walked with the interns and went of these stairs by myself. I started feeling cramping in my stomach. Just a little bit though. I held my stomach with one hand and the railing with another. I put my head down on the cool metal rail. I heard his voice.

"Meredith are you alright" he said coming over to me

He started rubbing my back

"I'm fine" I said trying to shoo him away