Finding Her

Talking To Jane

"DONT FUCKING MOVE!"
He screech's as he pulls out.
I wake up in a panic and Jane is awake
"Hey hey it's okay, nightmare?"
I nod as I focus on my breathing.
I place my head back on my pillow
"You're safe baby"
"Thank you"
I smile before going back to sleep.
I wake up in agony from my rib so i take an ibuprofen.
I lie back down and wait for Jane to wake up so we can have breakfast together.
She wakes up and turns around to me straight away.
"How long have you been awake baby?"
"Not long."
"Do you want breakfast?"
She smiles as she puts a pair of shorts on over her boxers.
"Yes please Um can I have avocado on brown bread?"
"Sure , I'll call you when it's ready."
"Okay thank you."
She goes downstairs and I go to the bathroom.
I go downstairs when she calls me and I sit at the table
We eat in silence.
I sit in front of the tv and stare at my rug.
I move it because it looks out of place.
Jane watches me as I pace back and forth.
"Baby please sit down."
"Why?"
I question as I bite my nail.
"I can tell that you're stressed."
"Okay I'll sit down."
I sit down and she sits next to me.
"Baby I need you to talk to me."
"No not now."
I shake my head as I look at her my eyes pleading for her to stop
"You're gonna keep putting it off baby"
"I know but I want to talk about it tonight not now."
"Okay"
I sigh and I hug her.
"Thanks for being understanding."
She nods and we watch a basketball game.
The time comes.
We get into bed after changing into our pyjamas
I just wear a tank top and some shorts.
Jane wears boxers and a crop top.
"No rush baby. I won't interrupt you"
"Thanks baby."
I sigh and take a sip of my water.
"I was walking home from work and suddenly I felt a hand cover my mouth with a cloth"
I shudder.
"I tried to fight but I went limp but I was still awake when they figure placed me in the back of his car. I couldn't see because of the drug. He brought me to some please but I was out cold by that point."
She nods.
"When I came to and I was- I was handcuffed to a bed and I um I had a gag- in my mouth"
I move because I'm uncomfortable.
"Two men came in and one of them gave me water."
"On the second day... I had hurt my wrist attempting to break out of the handcuffs. They decided to chain me instead because I was 'feisty'"
She holds my hand as it begins to shake.
"I woke up and the first guy was covered...and I mean covered in blood. He said that his name was Allen and that he'd killed his partner because he wanted to kill me. He told me that he'd rape me and that's what he did. He told me that he loved me."
She shivers.
"I love you Maura. I've seen you in the newspapers and on tv. You're so hot. I want you to have my babies and I want you to be my wife."
I shudder again
"I smiled trying not to anger him."
"I fucking love you so much"
He said as he kissed me on the neck.
"Please stop!"
I struggled and tried to move away from his grip.
He ripped open my blouse and I cried as he puts his hand on my boob.
I disassociated from the situation and pretended like it wasn't happening.
He finished and pulled back up his pants and then he left"
"On the third day, He puts his arms around my wrist , Your wrist is so small. I could just snap it"
I pulled my wrist back.
"These chains are getting really sore and I um I need the bathroom."
I said
"Hold it."
"I have been for hours, please"
"Fine"
"Thank you so much"
He took off my chains and I stood up.
I instantly fell to the floor which ripped my skirt
"Don't worry, I'll get you some new clothes"
I nodded
He took a picture of me on the floor.
He helped me up and grabbed my hand.
He forced me into the bathroom and he watched as I relieved myself then I wiped and flushed the toilet
Subsequently, I washed my hands and afterwards he walked me back.
He made me stand and he removed my skirt
"Can't I get myself dressed?"
I questioned as he removed my black tights.
"No you can't so get used to it."
He then took off my panties which were bloodstained.
"Seems like you haven't had sex for a while."
"I'm a lesbian"
I announced as a tear falls
He slapped me super hard and I fell to the floor.
"HOW FUCKING DARE YOU! I've watched you for days and this is how you repay me! Bitch!"
He kicked me in the rib as I winced
I pulled myself back up and stood up.
He yanked on a pair of jeans onto me roughly and a plain top too.
He sat me back into the bed and put a new pair of handcuffs on.
"Try and get some sleep baby. You're gonna have a long day tomorrow"
He kissed me and left before I got to ask any questions."
I take a long deep breath and another drink as Jane watched.
I woke up and Allen was pulling my shorts down.
"Allen please stop..."
"You deserve this Maura."
"Why?"
I questioned as he thrusted it inside of me.
"You are a slut, you're such a brat and you are a lesbian."
"I'm not a slut"
I said as he pulled my hair.
He punched me hard and I fell to the floor.
He tried to help me but I refused
"Please just fucking go!"
I cried as I tilted my head forward to stop my nose from bleeding.
"FINE! WAIT AND SEE WHAT I HAVE PLANNED FOR YOU!"
He ripped off my clothes and left me naked.
He punched me over and over until his hand started to bleed.
He slams the door and locks it.
I sobbed and curled up in a ball.
"Please Jane, save me"
I whispered as I felt myself losing consciousness.
"Then you guys found me"
"Oh my poor baby"
She cradles me as I sob.
"What happened to Allen?"
"Allen was arrested baby , he was treated for a gunshot wound but he's being detained at the precinct now"
"And the other guy?"
"He's dead baby"
I nod.
"What if he comes after me again?"
"He won't baby."
I nod and she cradles me for the rest of the night.
We fall asleep in each other's arms.
"Love, we have to get dressed!"
She wakes me up
"Huh?"
"It's time to go out for a while. We can't stay cooped up"
"I don't wanna go out"
I tell her as a tear falls.
"Baby I know but it'll be good for you."
I sigh as I pull on a black bra.
I put on a pair of jeans and a sweater.
I eat breakfast and then we leave the house.
We go for a walk in the park and it's okay.
"Fresh air actually improves lung quality"
I tell Jane as we link arms
"Fun fact of the day."
We go back home and I relax on the couch.