Finding Her

Waking

I wake up crying.
Jane wakes up and she holds me
"I'm sorry!"
I sob.
"Sh sh no it's okay baby"
She rubs my back as I take some deep breaths
"Did you have a nightmare baby?"
I nod my head since I can't find the words to describe it.
"Can you tell me about it?"
I shake my head rapidly
"That's okay. Deep breaths honey"
I clutch her hand then I go to the bathroom.
I splash some water on my face and I feel better
We go downstairs for breakfast.
Jane feeds me the porridge with yogurt.
I thank her and then we go back to our room after she's finished.
I feel the babies kick then I go on my phone for a bit.
After that, we go out.
We go to a cafe and I drink a tea.
We then go for a walk.
We head back to the hotel once I've became tired.
"Do you want to have a nap honey? You seem exhausted"
"Yes please"
"Alright honey"
I quickly get into my pjs and we snuggle in together.
I fall asleep whilst sucking my thumb.
I feel Jane beside me so I know I'm safe
That is until he appears
I wake up screaming and crying.
"Sh sh I'm here baby. You're safe"
She holds me as I rock myself.
"Sh baby, can you look at me?"
I shake my head as I rock myself back and forward
"Baby Sh sh look at me"
I slowly look up to her
"Hey hey it's me. You're safe"
I instinctively grab her and I cry into her chest
"I'm here. Sh sh I've got you"
I grasp at her back as I sob
I eventually stop crying and I wipe my tears.
I drink a cola from the mini fridge and Jane does too.
I smile at her.
We go down to dinner and Jane feeds me pasta.
I cry as we head back to the room
"Oh honey Sh sh it's okay"
"I- I just thought about him"
"Allen?"
I nod my head rapidly.
We open the hotel door and we head inside our room.
"Tell me what you thought of baby?"
"He- he had me at the strip club"
She nods.
"Get in there!"
He yells as he pushes me into the dressing room.
"Sir please take me home!"
I sob.
"No now get changed or I'll make you!"
I sigh
"That's it!"
He comes in with me and he yanks me over his knee.
I cry as he spanks me
The other girls watch as he makes my ass red raw.
He stands me up and he quickly takes my clothes off.
He puts a bra and a thong on me.
I cry as he makes me step out into the floor.
He quickly gives me vodka and a beer.
I drink them to keep him happy
He knows that I get drunk easily
He makes me pole dance as the men all watch.
One man catches my attention by grabbing my ass
"Hey don't touch me!"
I push his hand off.
"I can touch you if I like"
"Hey if you want to touch, you have to pay!"
Allen demands.
"Okay sure"
He hands him two hundred
"Can I fuck her?"
"Sure be my guest."
"Thanks"
He grabs my wrist and he drags me off.
"No! Stop it!"
The security look at me and they turn their heads the other way.
I cry as he gets me into a room.
He quickly locks the door so I can't escape.
I shake as he pulls off his jacket
"Hey darling, what's your name?"
"Maura, what's yours?"
"John. How about I call you...sweetie?"
"Um okay"
He runs his hand down the side of my face as i repulse.
"Oh you don't like it do you sweetie?"
I shake my head
"Well then why are you a stripper huh?"
"I'm a medical examiner! I'm not a stripper!"
"By the way you were dancing on that pole, I can guarantee you're a stripper"
"I- I was kidnapped and made to be a stripper!"
"Oh serves you right."
I am shocked at how easily he could say that to my face.
He moves my thong to the side as he lies me down on the bed.
"No please?"
"Shut up sweetie and take it!"
"Okay okay please just be gentle?!"
"Nope gentle isn't even in my vocabulary."
He tries to joke
"Please try to go easy on me? It hurts?"
"Sorry but I like it rough"
"Well I don't!"
He pushes me back down after I tried to get away.
He holds me down as I fight.
"Get off!"
I whine as he undoes his trousers.
"Oh so you like a struggle"
"No I want you off of me?!"
I squirm and sob as he gets himself inside.
He grabs me and he thrusts me forward
I wince as he goes faster.
"Hey stop!"
"No darling. It's supposed to hurt"
"No no no it's not supposed to hurt this bad!"
I immediately think of my father saying that.
I attempt to roll over to have a slight bit of control of the situation
He grabs me and he turns me back over.
I slap him then he holds me down tighter.
I scream in pain as he thrusts faster and harder
"That's it sweetie! Take it! Take it slut!"
"S-Slow down!"
I cry
"I'm not slowing down sweetie."
He strokes my face as I cry.
He has both of my arms pinned above my head.
I can barely move.
"A-are you nearly done?"
"Oh no I'm not. I have a lot more that I want to do to you"
I cry as he cums inside of me.
He gets out of me then he does me anally as I scream bloody murder.
Next he instructs me to stand up.
I stand and I stumble
"Aw sweetie doesn't like it in the ass does she?"
I shake my head.
He grabs a whip and I cry upon seeing it.
He shackles me to a board with me lying on my stomach.
He whips my ass as I scream.
"Please - please stop!!?"
"No sweetie"
He whips my back as I scream No over and over.
He eventually stops and he leaves me tied.
Allen comes in.
"Ready to go?"
He questions.
"Get- get me out of here!"
I sob.
"Okay honey Sh sh"
He untied me then he took me into his arms
He took me out of the club completely naked and shaking
He carried me and he laid me down in the passenger seat.
He puts the seat all the way back and he puts a blanket over me.
"I know you're cold honey."
"T-thanks sir"
He drives off.
I stop talking and Jane holds me
"Oh baby I'm so sorry"
"No it's okay. I mean I deserved it."
"Baby no you certainly didn't deserve it. You didn't deserve any part of it"
"How do you know huh?"
"I know because you're a victim baby. It wasn't your fault"
I sigh.
"Whatever you say"
I yawn and I get changed into my pyjamas
I fall asleep soon after