Finding Her

Talks

I yawn as I wake up.
We pack our bags and we leave after breakfast.
We head home and she sits me down on the couch
"Do you want to talk honey?"
I nod slightly as I grab a blanket.
I lie my head down onto her lap.
"Allen had me in the club all the time even on weekends"
She strokes my hair
I gasp for air as a customer kicks me in the ribs.
"Get up you weak whore!"
"I- I can take it!"
I cry
"Oh you can we'll see about that"
He kicks me harder as I scream.
He uses my body as a punching bad and he doesn't rape me
I'm black and blue when Allen came back to collect me
"How was it darling?"
"Don't talk to me!"
I push his hand away as I walk to the car
"Oh someone's moody"
"Yeah well I have just been beaten up for your information!"
He smacks the side of my head
"Don't forget you're mine!"
I shake my head as I get into the car sobbing violently.
He hands me a cigarette.
"Just to calm you down honey"
"Thank you"
He makes me clean his house since he knows that I like cleaning.
I organise the whole fridge.
We sit down after I've cleaned.
I sigh as I'm exhausted
"My- my ribs hurt. Do you think you could give me a paracetamol please?"
"Of course"
He quickly gets me it with water
I swallow it
"Thank you daddy"
"No darling only call me daddy when we're at the club"
"Oh okay"
I turn to Jane as I cry
"I- I'm not gonna be a good mom! I'm terrified I'll let my babies down by being myself!"
"Oh honey you're gonna be a great mom. Sure you have your problems but you're getting help"
"Yeah but what if-"
"You can't think like that honey"
I sigh.
"I guess you're right"
She grins as I hold onto her.
I talk to the babies telling them that I know that they exist
"Hey babies, are yous kicking? Are you saying hello to mommy and momma?"
I grin as Jane feels the kicks.
"You have a session tomorrow by the way"
"Oh yeah"
I yawn
"I'm gonna go to sleep now"
"Alright I'll join you soon honey."
"Okay love you x"
She kisses me then I go into the room
I change into my pjs and I get in bed
I fall asleep