Finding Her

I need you

"PLEASE STOP SIR!"
I screech as he beats my stomach once again.
"You were a bad girl!! You deserve to be punished!"
"I need you to stop! Please?!"
He hits me again but this time in the mouth.
I spit some blood up as I whine.
He fights his way into my pants as I screech.
I scream as I awaken.
Jane grabs Bella and she hands it to me.
I yeet Bella away
"I don't want her! I- I want you! I need you!"
I sob as I cling to Jane.
"Ok Sh sh I'm here baby."
She helps me to breathe as I cry.
"I- I don't need Bella! I don't need her!"
"Sh baby you don't have to pretend."
"I don't want her- I want you!"
"You have me baby"
She looks into my eyes
"I'm here."
I cry until I calm down
"I'm sorry."
"Don't be sorry baby. You're telling me what you need and that's great!"
"Okay?"
She rubs my back as I cuddle into her arms.
She holds me in an embrace until I get up.
I use the bathroom.
We go downstairs to have breakfast.
I have a hand on my bump as Jane feeds me.
She smiles as she loads another spoonful of the cereal into my mouth.
I eat it and she grins.
I take my vitamins after and then we go out.
We spend the day with Tommy and his son Tommy Jr.
We go to the bar and we have lunch
Tommy looks at us as Jane feeds me
I definitely feel uncomfortable.
"Why are you feeding her Janey?"
Tommy Jr questions as he looks at me.
"It's an inside joke son."
Tommy steps in so she doesn't have to answer.
"Thank you"
I whisper to him.
He smiles.
She finishes feeding me then we talk about baby stuff.
"If you need any help, don't be afraid to ask"
"Thanks Tommy."
I smile as I hold Tommy Jr in my arms
He puts his face onto my bump and he listens to the heartbeat.
I have one of those lemonade drinks because they're my favourite.
I use the bathroom and then we head home.
Jane and I talk about normal things.
What are we gonna have for dinner
What are we gonna tomorrow
"I have a session tomorrow."
I remind her
"Oh yes, I nearly forgot"
I nod my head.
We have dinner then I go to bed early because I'm exhausted.