Finding Her

Fighting and Loving

Allen stares at me from across the room as I wake up
"Oh hi sir!"
I sit back quickly.
"Hi darling. How are you feeling?"
"My whole body hurts but other than that I'm good."
He grins
"That's what you get baby."
He takes me into the living room and he places me into the high chair
He then feeds me as I whine.
"Eat it or else you wont eat for a week!"
I force down the slop that he's feeding me
"Good girl."
He leaves me to sit in the chair whilst he goes out to do some shopping.
He comes back
"Help me unpack the shopping"
He helps me out of the chair.
"Okay sir."
I begin taking stuff out of the bags and placing it in the designated spot or places.
I notice that he's brought pads
I turn to him with them in my hand
"Why are you looking at me like that?!"
"Oh it's just that- I don't need them."
"What do you mean?"
"I don't get periods."
"You bitch! I wasted money on you!"
He slaps me
"No no! I can use them if I bleed?!"
"Yep and you'll be bleeding a lot baby"
I nod my head
I continue looking at what he's bought
Wax strips.
Toilet paper
Plastic wrap
Cable ties
Deodorant.
"I bought the deodorant so when you go to the club, you won't smell bad and all the men will want you."
He comments as I nod
"The tissues because you cry so much"
I nod again.
We finish putting the stuff away.
He slowly touched my nipple and I was contaminated with desire
"You're teasing me"
I comment with a slight smile.
"Yep."
He pours me a glass of vodka and I accept it.
I sit down at the table and I down it.
He watches as I pull a face.
"Is it nasty?"
I nod my head as I take a breath.
I gulp in fear as he puts his hand onto my neck.
He begins to squeeze as I attempt to pull his hand off.
I feel lightheaded and my vision begins to turn blurry.
"Sir- please?!"
I cry as he tightens his grip.
I gasp for air as he pulls his hand off.
I clutch my throat as I cough.
I take a deep breath and I choke.
He watches with satisfaction written all over his face.
It leaves a big handprint across my neck.
I sob.
He takes me to the club that night.
"That bruise is so sexy."
He comments
He takes me out onto the floor and a man instantly hands him €600
I whine as he drags me to the back.
He pulls my hair and he forces me into a room
He locks the door
He shoves me onto the table and he whispers in my ear
"You're gonna enjoy this No Sh
He rips my skirt off and he begin to unbutton his pants as I start to scream and cry.
He shoves his big cock in my tight pussy without any warning.
I screech in pain as I grip the table.
The assault lasts over an hour.
He zips his pants up and he leaves.
I pull my skirt back on even though it covers nothing.
I readjust my thong and I head back out.
My mascara has smudged.
I get picked by a man and he pays Allen.
He drags me to the room as I whine and walk reluctantly
He forces me down onto the couch and I sob
He quickly gets inside as I screech
"Please.. I- I can't."
I whisper, shaking my head with a pained whimper.
"What was that darling?"
"please.. please."
"I can't hear you"
"Please?! Stop!"
He fucks me faster as I whine.
He finally gets off then we go home.
I wake up panicked.
Jane helps me to fall back asleep.
Allen took me back to the club.
A mean old man pays him €700
He grinds on me in the back room as I whine
He whispers mean names and he calls me a desperate slut as I try in vain to lean away.
He puts his fingers inside of me as he tells me how much I'm begging for it
I shake my head as he squeezes my titties as I sob trying to deny it
He lifts my skirt up and he unbuckles his belt. He gets harder at the tears falling down my face as his thick dick rubs against my folds.
I tighten with the humiliation.
He forces inside as I scream and sob.
He continues as I screech and I squirm.
He finishes and he leaves.
I cry as I curl up in a ball.
I notice that there's a window at the top of the room.
I've had enough
I pull a box over and I attempt to get out.
Allen appears
"Oh no you don't!"
He yanks me down to the floor.
He kicks me in the ribs as I sob
"I'm sorry sir! I didn't mean it!"
"You were trying to escape you bitch!"
"No no! I was trying to close the window? It was so cold!"
"You're a lying slut!"
He kicks my ribs and I hear a crack
I wail in pain.
He grabs my hair and he grabs a scissors.
I cry as he cuts a strand off.
"That's what you get!"
He takes my clothes off as I sob.
He picks me up and he grabs a dog collar
"No!"
I whine as he puts it on my neck.
He tightens it and he puts a leash on me
He drags me out.
"Crawl or else I'll hurt you! Call me daddy from now on. Forget sir!"
I nod as I crawl along the floor
He takes me outside as I whine.
He yanks me to the car.
He puts me into the backseat and he ties the leash to the headrest.
I cry as he leaves my seatbelt off.
He gets into the drivers seat and he locks the car.
"Daddy please- please let me sit in the front?!"
"Nope you're staying back there."
I sob as I look at my bruised legs.
He clenched the wheel in an attempt to control his anger
He turned the music up to drown out the sound of my cries.
He hops his head to the tune.
He finally arrives at the house and he parks the car
He walks off pretending to forget me
"Daddy- daddy where are you going?! Let me out! Let me fucking out! Where are you fucking going?!"
I bang on the windows rapidly panicking.
He turns around and he opens the car door
"Get out!"
He yells as he takes the leash into his hands.
He yanks the leash which makes me fall.
I death stare him.
He drags me along as I roll and whine at the hard gravel against my soft skin.
He finally gets me up the flight of stairs and I whine
He decided not to use the elevator since he wanted me to experience the pain of each step hitting my already broken body.
He opens his apartment door.
I noticed that nobody else lives here so he must own the apartment building.
He locks the door and he drags me into the bathroom.
"Daddy please?! I'm sorry I was- I was just scared!"
He turns the water onto scalding and he sits me into the bath
I watch as my thighs quickly turn red.
I wail as it scalds me.
He then turns it to freezing and I shiver.
He dunks me into the freezing water.
I screech as he holds me underneath
"Are you scared baby?"
I nod rapidly as I fight him.
I gasp for air as I come to the surface.
"Yes daddy please-!"
He pushes me back down before I get to say stop
He then forces me back up
He slaps my back to give me room to breathe.
He yanks me out of the bathtub and I land on the floor
He makes me shake myself dry like a dog.
He yanks me to the bedroom.
"Please- I've had enough! Please stop!"
"Nope."
He unbuckles his pants as I shiver since I'm so cold
He sticks his cock far in my throat and I think I'm going to be sick.
I gag as he forces me to suck him.
"You look so pretty with tears streaming down your face darling"
He comments as he grabs my hair to maximise his pleasure.
"Such a crybaby for daddy huh?"
"You're such a whore when you choke on my cock!"
He slaps my face as I take some deep breaths
He then empties his load into my mouth.
"Swallow for daddy"
I swallow as I sob.
He slaps my face again and it quickly turns red
"You're perverted!"
I scream at him as he rubs my red face.
"Oh really? I never knew!"
He throws me onto the bed
He grabs my legs and he spreads them as I sob
I force them back together and he pushes them apart.
I watch him get more turned on as I lie there helpless.
I can't even move so I just watch as he unbuckles his pants.
He grabs my panties tearing them off
"This is what you fucking get!"
I'm squirming trying to wiggle my way free, while he climbs on top of me
"Nowhere to fucking go now"
"oh god no! oh god he's actually going to fuck me. I- I can't survive another rape tonight!"
He rubs my cunt with his cock for a little bit while he keeps my head pressed down against the white bed sheets.
He watches me squirm, shaking my ass from left to right as his cock slides up and down my folds.
"you're so fucking tight ahh ah fuck ahhh fuck fuck fuck fuck"
The sick sound of my moans and grunts in my ear as I swear and screech
"ahh ahhh fuck take it, take it all you fucking whore this is what you get"
He flips me around.
He grabs me by the neck, shock and horror are splashed upon my face as i look at him
Empty scary void less eyes that stare back into my soul.
He forces me to kiss him and I pretend to enjoy it.
I wake up absolutely screeching at the top of my lungs
"Hey hey Maura look at me. Hey look at me baby?"
"He- he hurt me! He fucked me- so hard! It hurt!"
"I'm so sorry honey. Can you take some deep breaths for me?"
I clutch my chest as I cry
"That's it just breathe baby. In and out like we practice okay?"
I nod as I take a couple.
I explain about my nightmare through tears
"Oh honey sh I'm so sorry that happened. I want you to know that you're completely safe now and nobody can ever hurt you again"
"I love you so much Janey."
"I love you more Mira"
I smile at the use of my nickname.
We then go back to sleep since it's only 3:35am.
I wake up and I need to hurt myself
I grab my blades and I head to the bathroom
I cut myself then I get back into bed