Finding Her

Cries ring out in the night

When we get home, I go for a shower.
Jane helps to dry me
I rub some lotion onto my bump then I do my skincare.
I lie down in the bed and we watch tv together
I yawn and I fall asleep in Jane's arms.
I feel her shuffle and I can hear her yawning.
"What are you doing?!"
Allen questions as he spots me picking at my skin on my thighs.
"Oh it's nothing sorry."
I wipe the blood off.
"It doesn't look like nothing. Do you like hurting yourself huh?"
"I- I don't know"
I cry
"Alright honey sh sh."
Allen takes the handcuffs off me
"Thank you sir"
"Don't mention it baby"
I smile slightly
He then feeds me breakfast
I focus on the wall as he puts the spoon into my mouth.
"Swallow"
I swallow
"You like swallowing don't you baby?"
I shake my head
"Maybe you should get used to it."
He unbuckles his belt and he pushes my head.
He forces me to swallow.
"That's my girl!"
He screech's as I swallow it.
I wipe my mouth
"GET OUT? JUST GO!"
"DON'T YOU DARE SPEAK TO ME LIKE THAT!"
"GET THE FUCK OUT! LEAVE ME ALONE?!"
He grabs his gun and he yanks my pants down.
He puts me into the childbirth position.
I squirm uncontrollably as he sticks his gun inside
"Oh darling when will you ever learn?!"
He gets angrier and I scream
He's asserting his dominance by not stopping when I tell him to.
"Okay you've had your fun? PLEASE STOP!"
I sob.
"Sh it's nearly over honey."
"No no!"
I scream as he pulls it out.
"See all done!"
I sob as I wake up.
Jane holds me as I screech.
"Sh sh you're safe!"
I cry as I hold Bella and I also hold onto Jane
"I'm- I'm okay"
I say after a couple of deep breaths.
"Hey let's go back to sleep baby"
I comment
"Alright love you"
"Love you more"
I kiss her goodnight then we leave