Finding Her

Blue Jeans

It's two days later and he finally comes back
I'm wearing blue jeans and a white shirt.
He comes close with a tray of food.
He's wearing a suit so maybe he was applying for a job!
"It's a special day! It's a week since I took you!"
"Oh hurray"
He slaps me harshly.
"Don't talk back to me!"
"I- I wasn't sir! I was just stating facts!"
"I don't tolerate any form of sarcasm!"
He flings the tray aside and he kisses me as I try to pull away.
He grabs my and puts me over his lap.
"You're gonna accept this punishment!"
He grabs my wrist so tight I think it's going to break.
He yanks down my jeans and tears fall as he spanks me.
300 spankings later and I'm red raw.
He pulls my jeans back up immediately and I wince in pain.
"Stand up slut! We're going out"
Allen orders.
"Oh- okay"
He takes the handcuffs off
I wake up panicked in Jane's arms
It's time for dinner.
I have one measly protein bar then I go for my evening cigarette.
Tears swell in my eyes as I take another drag and then my lungs to ash
I put it out then I go back inside.
I brush my teeth but I can still smell the smoke so I throw the shirt in the laundry.
I take a shower then I dry my hair
I lay on the bed and I cuddle with Jane.
"Baby- I need to tell you something"
"Okay, is it hard to talk about baby?"
"I- it's really hard to talk about it. I feel sick just thinking about it"
I take a deep breath
"Allen's mother knew about us! Well she thought I was his girlfriend"
"He took me to meet her"
"Oh honey I'm so sorry"
"I- I endured terrible abuse at his hands in his mothers home after I told his mom that he had kidnapped me. "He- he killed her in front of me! He got me to help him incinerate her"
I sob
"Oh god, that's horrible baby. You should've never been subjected to that"
"It's my fault! I shouldn't have mentioned that I was taken. She asked him and he shot her dead right in- front of me"
"He made me check her pulse. Nothing, I pronounced her and he smiled a smile I'd never seen before and I hope I never see again"
"We brunt her, I vomited a couple of times and he called me weak"
He gives me a shovel.
"Start digging bitch!"
He kicks me to the floor and I cry.
I start to dig and eventually I get deep enough
He forces me to roll her into it.
My back hurts.
He helps me to fill back up the hole.
He carried me inside since I was shivering and I couldn't walk.
"Sh sh it's okay"
"You- you just killed your own mother!"
"I did but she deserved it!"
"She was such a sweet old lady! A kind soul!"
He slaps me hard across the mouth.
Tears fall as he tackles me to the floor.
"Please....not tonight!"
"Yes tonight!"
He winks as he unbuttons my jeans
He slides them down to my ankles but ultimately decided to take them off altogether.
He rapes me as I scream and I hit him.
"Stop fighting slut!"
He slaps me and he knocks me out.
I take a deep breath after telling Jane all that
"Oh honey."
I sob into her shirt as she rocks me.
I head into the bathroom and I use the toilet.
I wash my hands then I get back into bed.
"Night baby, I love you"
"Night honey, I love you more!"
She kisses me and I kiss her back.
We snuggle until she falls asleep first
I takes me ages but I eventually fall asleep