Finding Her

Aftermath

I get home from the road trip after getting the stitches taken out.
I quickly call Lucky and then I sneak out
"I'm so sore"
I whine to Lucky as we walk along the shore at 11pm.
"I'm so sorry that happened"
Tears fall as he holds my hand.
We sit down.
I turn to him and he turns to me.
"I- I can still suck your dick? I don't want you to leave me!"
"Baby no no you don't have to go anything that you don't want to do. I won't leave you just because you can't have sex. That doesn't matter to me baby"
"Oh okay but I can? If you want."
"I don't mind"
I smile as I quickly unbutton his jeans
I suck him and I swallow
I grin as I pull his pants back up.
He cuddles me and I smile.
He drops me back home.
I climb into my room.
I get into bed quickly as I hear my dad waking up.
He instantly opens the door
"You've fucked up! I know that you snuck out!"
I lift my head and pretend to be dazed
"Huh?"
"I know that you're wide awake"
"What- are you talking about?"
I roll over.
He yanks the covers off
I immediately sit up
"That woke you up"
He does inverted commas
Tears fall.
He picks me up and he throws me onto the floor.
"You're getting it now!"
"I- I can't have sex for six weeks!"
I cry
"Oh fuck I forgot! You can just suck me"
"No!"
I cry.
He sits on the bed and forces me to go on my knees
He forces me to give him head
I sob after I wipe my mouth off.
"Good girl"
He comments
"Leave me alone"
He hits me
I wake up shivering and crying in Jane's arms
"He's coming for me?!"
"Baby Allen can't hurt you remember?"
"No no! My dad! He still lives in Boston! He's gonna find me"
"Oh honey...he doesn't know that you are here"
I get out of the bed and I rush into the living room.
She follows me and she instantly locks the front and back door.
"Open."
I cry
"I'm sorry baby but there's no way I'm going to open the door."
I walk away in a sulk
My breathing is laboured
"Baby stop honey, stop walking away. Take a couple of breaths"
I clutch my chest and I crouch down
I end up sitting down.
I rock myself back and forth.
Jane locks us in the bedroom
"What are you doing?! Open the fucking door?!"
She shakes her head.
I feel like the walls are caving in
I'm sweating and breathing slowly
"I-I can't breathe!"
"Sh"
She gets down beside me and takes my hands into hers.
"I need you to take deep breaths baby"
I shake my head
"I can't"
"For me baby?"
I slowly start to take deep breaths.
She holds me as my breath turns to normal.
"I'm- I'm okay now"
I get up and I get back into bed.
She cuddles me.
"Goodnight baby. Wake me if you have a nightmare"
"Okay night baby"
I kiss her and say that I love her
"I love you more baby"
She kisses me back then we spoon.
I take a breath then I fall asleep