Finding Her

Chapter Thirteen

Allen is on top of me grinning creepily.
I sob as he rapes me.
He finally get off but he kisses my neck.
"You smell amazing baby."
He comments.
"It's my perfume...where's my bag? I could spray some for you if you'd like?"
"You fucker! You mother fucker! You're trying to trick me!"
He slaps me
"No no Allen I'm not. I promise"
He gives me the bag and he uncuffs me.
I root around in it and I eventually find the bottle
I spray it at him and attempt to run but he grabs me
"You think perfume can hurt me...you have another thing coming Maura."
He grabs my neck and he pulls me.
My ass hits against his dick and I feel the throb.
A tear falls.
"I'm sorry- I didn't mean too. My finger slipped."
He puts his hands on my stomach and presses in.
"Please don't hurt me!"
"Sorry baby but after the stunt you pulled-"
"I told you I was sorry , it was an accident now please get your hand off my neck!"
"Don't fucking order me bitch!"
He keeps his hand on my neck the whole time he's fucking me.
I wake up with a start.
Jane watches as I get up.
I take a nice long shower.
She watches as i attempt to pull up my own pants but my rib twinges and I hit the dresser in frustration.
"GOD FUCKING DAMNIT!"
She gets out of the bed and she pulls them up.
"Hey hey it's okay"
I sob into her shoulder as we hug.
"Oh honey , I'm here."
"I think I'm unfixable baby"
I admit.
She takes me off her shoulder.
"You don't need to be fixed baby, you need to heal"
I hug her again.
"Can we go out today please?!"
I question as she gets dressed
"Are you sure you're ready for that?
I nod
"Where would you like to go baby?"
"A café?"
"Okay then we can go to a sit down one and we can talk so we can stay out for a while"
"Alright"
I pack my bag and we decide to get pancakes at a café.
We walk a different way since I might get triggered.
We arrive at the café and she orders.
I get us a table and she joins me.
I stare down at the table as my hand shakes.
I place my other hand on to stop it.
She notices but doesn't say anything.
My hand continues to shake and I wonder what it is.
Could it be a panic attack in the mist?
Could it be tremor?
Could it be a reaction to the drugs I was given?
They flushed the drug's out of my system so why would my hand be shaking!
"Hey baby, you're lost in thought. Are you okay?"
"Uh huh"
I sip on the coffee and I barely eat the pancakes
"I'm sorry- I'm just not hungry. I know I should be but I'm just not. I've kinda gotten used to not being allowed food"
"I'll give you all the food you want baby"
She smiles.
I sip on the coffee until it's all gone and then I wait for Jane to finish.
I stare at the menu on the table as Jane puts the fork into her mouth.
God , she's taking so long and all I wanna do is go home.
I feel like everyone knows my secret and they're all watching me.