Finding Her

Sessions

My dad is waiting by the front door.
I'm smoking a cigarette.
I put it out.
"Hey-"
"Get inside"
I gulp as I walk in
I put my school bag down
I've just been out with Lucky after running away from the school.
"I got a call from Mr.Simmons."
"Oh- okay did you?"
"Yep and he said that you were mitching!"
"He doesn't like me so he's lying"
"How dare you accuse a teacher of lying!"
He yanks my coat off me.
He hangs it up
Jennifer is sitting with her legs crossed.
"Oh hi!"
I say surprised to see her.
"Hi Maura, take a seat"
"I'll stand"
"Sit down!"
My dad orders
I nod slightly and instantly plop myself into the seat.
"Now I'm here to have a session with just you and your father-"
"I- I don't want him here"
"I'm afraid that you're under 16 so you have to have an adult with you."
I watch as Jennifer smiles at me
A tear falls from my eye so I wipe it away
My dad sits down next to me after he grabbed a drink for himself.
He places a hand on my thigh.
I feel grossed out already
"The problem is that she is sleeping with this guy. She has a boyfriend and I want her all to myself"
"She's at that age"
Jennifer comments
"She is sneaking out 24/7 to get her pussy pounded by him. I bet he doesn't fill you with his seed just like I do baby"
"He's way better than you!"
He grabs my ponytail and he bends me over the couch
"I'll show you how good I am"
He starts to anally rape me as I scream.
I wake up and I make a dash to the toilet.
I end up throwing up in the sink.
Jane rushes in and holds up my hair.
She rubs my back.
"I- I don't feel well"
I cry as I wipe my mouth.
"Oh honey...you're very pale."
I groan as I retch again
She ties my hair up so she can rub my back.
"I'm gonna still get Sandy to come over to take a look at you baby."
"No no?!"
"Baby she won't have a session with you today"
"Promise?"
"I promise baby"
"Okay I-"
I'm interrupted by another wave of nausea and I throw up.
My legs buckle and faint
I wake up and Jane is by my side.
Sandy is staring at me.
I look around confused.
I hear people and I can see a lot of white.
I can hear beeping
I feel instantly panicked
"WHERE?! WHERE AM I?!"
I sob as I realise that there's a cannula in my nose and arms
"In the hospital baby. Sh you're okay"
"What- what the fuck?!"
"You were dehydrated and malnourished. You hadn't eaten in days so they pushed fluids, I'm
Sorry baby"
"I need to get out of here!"
"Baby uh uh no no stay in the bed"
"You're not letting me go home?!"
I shake my head pissed off.
"Baby you need time to get better"
"DON'T TELL ME WHAT I FUCKING NEED!"
I attempt to take the cannula out but Jane grabs my arm.
"Baby no?"
"Yes"
I swing my legs to the other side of the bed.
I ripe one of the cannulas out
I sob.
Sandy quickly gets other doctors.
They lift me back into the bed.
They quickly grab restraints
"NO PLEASE- I'LL BE GOOD!"
I cry as they restrain me
I fight with the restraints
"I'm so sorry baby but we can't have you hurting yourself"
"FUCK YOU! GET THESE THINGS OFF ME NOW!"
"Baby I can't- I want to but I'm not allowed"
My breath becomes shallow as I remember Allen rubbing against my soft scarred skin.
"Baby listen to me- deep breaths love"
"I- I can't? These are really triggering me! Please Sandy get them off?!"
She nods and quickly takes them off
I cup my wrists and clutch my chest.
"Ow ow ow"
I repeat.
I look forward.
"Sh sh I'm here baby"
She sits down on the bed and I cling to her.
"What's happening!?"
I sob as I have no clue what's going on
"As far as I know, you're staying in for observation until Tomorrow night baby"
I start to sob and whine like a child.
"But I don't want to?"
"Baby stop, you have to and that's the end of it"
I instantly start to sob again.
"Oh honey I'm sorry."
"It's not you!"
I cry.
She sits me back down into her lap.
She rubs her hands along my back as she comforts me.
I cry my eyes out.
Jane looks at me with sadness.
She gets Sandy to bring us a blanket.
She puts it over us.
I'm shivering since I'm cold.
I smile lightly.
"Why don't you try to sleep baby? I know that you're exhausted"
"Okay I- I guess I will"
I lie my head down onto her chest.
She rubs my back and I fall asleep
My dad kicks me as I exclaim that I didn't do anything.
"I KNOW WHAT YOU DID?!"
"WHAT THE FUCK DID I DO?!"
I scream as he drags me upstairs by my hair.
"YOU SKIPPED SCHOOL, DRANK AND YOU DID DRUGS! ALL THE THINGS I FORBID YOU TO DO!"
He tries to yank me up but I kick around so that he loses his grip.
He gives up.
He pins me to the floor.
I scream as he fights his way into my pants.
He beats me so hard that I think my arm is broken.
I sit there rocking myself back and forth.
"Round 2, incoming"
He grins as he yanks me close to him.
I wail.
"No no please? I've had enough"
"Sh just let it happen"
He rapes me as I just lie there.
"Good girl."
He comments as he wipes me off.
"Did I- do a good job?"
"Amazing baby. You didn't fight which is great"
He kisses me on the cheek then he leaves.
I sit there smiling slightly knowing that he's slightly proud of me.
For the wrong reasons.
I wake up in Jane's arms
"Are you okay honey?"
"Yep."
I get up and I use the bathroom with Jane's assistance.
We get back into the bed and we both fall back asleep very quickly.