Finding Her

Telling Jane

I sit in bed and put my book down.
"Stop looking at me Janey?!"
"I just want to know why you were nearly crying in the car?"
"I'll tell you after I um take a shower."
She nods and I go into the bathroom.
I could sneak out the window put that would damage my ribs even more.
I take a shower and cry.
I dry off and put on my pyjamas.
I come back out and get in beside her
"Janey... could you... could you hold me?"
"Of course baby"
She snuggles up to me and puts her arm around me.
"I can't stop thinking of Allen and what he did"
"Did anything else happen?"
"Yes"
I nod.
I sigh as she asks me to tell her.
"He said that I deserved to die as he checked out my scars on my wrist."
"How fucking dare he"
I nod.
"He cut me and punched me until I couldn't breathe."
I say as my breath became shallow
"Sh baby inhale and exhale remember?"
I nod and take a couple deep breaths and squeeze her hand.
"You're okay"
She reassures me.
"He um he left me on the floor and I tried to prepare myself for the worst as he came back."
She looks at me with sadness
"He pulled me up off the floor and yanked down the jeans as I screamed. They got stuck on my hips so he ripped them off me"
"He took off my bloodstained panties and entered me. His partner came in and he raped me...at the same time..."
"I was so scared and confused since the drugs hadn't worn off"
She nods
"When they- finished they laughed about how dry I was"
Her eyes droop with sadness.
"They hit me for that and they didn't care that I was crying"
She holds me tight
"I'm sorry that happened baby"
She kisses me goodnight and I ask her to spoon
She big spoons me as I fall asleep.