Finding Her

Begging

I remind myself of happy times when Jane and I first started dating.
"I- I think I like you"
I respond to her.
I snap out of it and he's still on top of me.
"I- I can't take this anymore please? Please just kill me?! I'm done?!"
I beg him once he finished raping me
"I'm serious Allen, please!!"
I sob as he grabs me
"STOP BEGGING!"
He screech's
I hit him and I have the courage to slap him.
That doesn't end well for me
He flings me into a wall.
I cry as I sink down.
He doesn't let me fully reach the ground before he picks me up again.
"You've been so naughty!"
He drags me into the living room and he strips me off my clothes.
He puts me into the high chair and I scream and sob.
He starts to slap me repeatedly as I scream.
"You deserve this! Look what you're making me do!"
"Please.... Stop!"
I whine
He punches me hard in the stomach as I wince.
I can't even clutch it since my hands are tied.
"Please...it hurts"
I wince as he punched me again.
He stops hitting me and he sits across from me.
He takes a sip of water as I try to calm down.
My breathing is laboured and rushed
"I- it hurts so bad"
I cry to him.
"Sh sh baby, the pain will subside. Are you a fast or a slow healer?"
He questions as he pulls his gun out from his waistband.
"S-Slow"
"Oh baby you should've told me...I would've gone easier on you."
"Can- can you bring me to bed? I need to lie down"
"Nope, you have to stay in the chair baby"
"Why?"
I question as I sob.
"Because you've been bad and you need to learn?"
I nod accepting that I'll never get out of here.
"You're not gonna use it are you?"
I say eyeing the gun.
"Oh no honey...don't worry it's here just in case"
"But you won't use it...right?"
"I can't guarantee it baby"
I swallow the contents of my stomach that came up with great drive as he grins.
"You're very pale now baby...are you scared?"
He grins as he sways his hand on the gun.
I nod slightly
"Don't be scared. If you behave, I won't have to use it."
I stare at him as he smiles back at me.
I lightly smile at him since I'm trying to keep him happy.
He frowns.
"You need to sit still"
He comments.
I look down to see that my legs are shaking and freely moving.
I cross my legs so that they won't shake.
They stop and he smiles.
"Can I have some water please?"
He nods and he gives me a drink from his water.
I accept it since I'm thirsty.
He looks at me and then he goes into the bathroom.
I can hear him doing his business and it's so intimidating.
He comes back out after washing his hands.
"Please...please let me out of this chair"
I cry to him as he places a hand on my shoulder
"Do I have to sedate you?"
He questions.
I shake my head.
"I have a lot of chloroform so it won't go to waste if I use it now"
"Please- I'm sorry."
He grins
"I've got you right where I want you"
"Can I ask you something?"
"Sure baby?"
"Why- why did you pick me?"
"You're so sexy! I saw you walking and you looked so vulnerable. You were texting and you had your head down."
"I- I was so stupid!"
"You were! When I found out that you're the chief medical examiner, I thought of dumping you but meh, you're too good of a fuck to do that."
"I- I didn't know that."
"Uh huh. You were so hot and you looked so pissed off so I decided to take you with my friend. He instantly agreed because we were both looking up your skirt."
"Oh" is all I manage to say.
I look at him as he sits down right next to me.
He has a bowl of porridge.
He loads a bit of it onto the spoon and holds it up to my mouth.
I shake my head and turn my face the other way.
He cups it and he makes me look at him
"You've got eat baby...it's been days"
"I- I can't!"
"Princess please just a small bite"
"You've never called me princess before?"
"Yeah but I know you're changing the subject"
He makes me eat it and I feel so nauseous.
I smile lightly at him.
"You've been in the chair long enough baby"
He unshackles me and moves me swiftly onto the couch.
I throw up much to our shock.
He stares at me.
He wipes the sick off the carpet and gets me a bowl right before I retch again.
"I- I think I'm sick...I feel really shit"
I whine as I pull my head up to see him frowning.
"Clearly. Watch your language baby"
He picks me up and brings me into the bedroom.
He changed me and he lay me down
"Get some sleep and I'll get you some antibiotics"
"Thank you"
"No problem"
He steps outside the room.
He comes back a couple of hours later.
"You've been sick again?"
He questions once he notices the disgusting contents of my stomach that have stained my shirt.
I nod slightly.
He slaps me harshly.
I wake up screaming.
Jane holds me tightly.
She makes me sit up and take a drink of water.
I work on my breathing.
"You have therapy again tonight baby."
"Oh for fuck sake"
"Sh sh it's okay"
We get up and have breakfast.
I have a protein bar then I go for my morning smoke.
We do some activities for the a while until I decide to have a nap.
"I'll be here when you wake up baby, dorm fight the sleepiness"
I nod as I snuggle into my pillow.
I yawn and soon enough I'm sleeping.